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its been god knows how long since Richie and Eddie broke up. Truthfully both of them were really in love with each other. Nothing could separate them, not even there parents, the only one that was trying to separate them was Eddie's mom, but still. they did everything together, one time, they danced in the kitchen, Eddie questioned the tall boy swaying him and Richie's only reason was "because why not." there was no music, there was no sound but their breathing. Eddies hair was soft, and Richie's arms were wrapped around his waist. Eddie had his arms over rich's shoulders, his arms slightly touching his fried curls. Richie had dyed his hair a lot, but decided to go back to black because he was tired of color. The only space between them was very little, due to Richie's fear of being too close, he didn't want Eddie uncomfortable. They also did little things like stand in the bathroom, Richie behind Eddie, holding him, as Eddie talked to him in his soft little voice. it was so calming. Eddie smelled good. despite spending a lot of time together, Eddie would always say "i don't want you to go him yet." or something like that. Richie never wanted to leave. the moment, the time. god, everything was perfect. but. a couple months later, Eddie had lost feelings. only reason Richie knew was because Richie had been the one that brought up the situation. he had texted him one night asking to talk. he had felt as Eddie drew away from him. and it hurt. a lot. so he asked. Eddie had asked what the talk was about and Richie assured him that they weren't breaking up, that's not what the talk was about. at least he had thought.
Richie: "i dont want to sound like an asshole or anything but i feel like you've been pulling away from me for a bit now, i know you have a lot going on, so i'm not mad, hell i wouldn't be mad at all, but i just want to know one thing, and please pleASE, be honest. Are we okay?"
a couple minutes went by, and Eddie finally responded.
Eddie: "i-... I dont know."
Eddie: "You wanted honnest, and thats my honest answer."
Eddie: "i dont know."
Richie had felt his heart drop, tears welled in his eyes. Ofc he was expecting this, but thats not what he wanted it to be. at all. but he knew it was what was gonna happen.
Richie: "yayyy, at least your honest. i love you. that wont chnage no matter what. wether this fails or not i will still love you."
Eddie: yeah, just know, igf this doesnt turn out the way we want, i love you, so fucking mutch.
Richie started to cry at that message. he loves him. at least that. he was staring at that message for a bit and shut his phone off, setting it aside and curling into a ball. only to get another message.
Eddie: "look rich. your an amazing guy. everything about you is, i just- i think i lost feelings. but i would still love to be freinds."
Richie's breath stopped. its. over. them. but..
Richie: "its okay i understand. id love to be freinds with you still!"
Eddie: "im sorry rich."
Richie: "no need to apologise Eds. we are still freinds. im not gonna dwell on it, at least your still here."
Eddie: "sorry."
Richie:"stop apologising, eddie, you dont need to be."
Eddie: "I know i just-"
Richie: "its alright i prommise. im gonna go to bed ill text you in the morning."
Richie shut his phone off. while typing that he would be lying if he said he wasn't covered in tears. his shirt was drenched because he kept using it to whipe them. he was shaking. audibly sobbing into his knees. they are done. their relationship. the only thing that has made him truly feel special. gone. he couldn't stop thinking about it. and if there is one promise he broke. is was saying that it was okay. they have made several promises. to tell the truth. to talk about situations. to love him. he still hasn't broke those. and never will. never. will. he put on the playlist he made for Eddie and him. nonstop crying and singing. he kept getting his phone out to look at photos of him. dropping tears on the screen making his phone go berserk. but he just couldn't stop crying. this was when they had just broken up though.
they are still good Friends. ed got into a relationship shortly after which Richie couldn't help but cry even more, because last he knew. him and eds were forever. he was the one marrying him not some lame-o he knew and dated in middle school. Richie knew this person was back in eds life, but knew eds always told the truth with him so he trusted the stranger as well. even after the breakup and after eds and that fucker Conner got together. he trusted Conner, he loved hearing Eddie talk about him, they would still call 24/7 and eddies face would light up when Conner would text him. his face was so happy, the smile Richie loved to see. it made him smile. but then soon Conner started being a bitch to Eddie. Richie fucking hated it. hasted him,. hated himself. For letting Eddie talk to that asshole while they were still together. Okay, confession. Eddie is poly. he had figured that out while they were dating and Conner was the other. For a while Richie and him were the only ones, then Conner contacted him. Eddie explained why they broke up in the past and Richie's only restriction was that ed was to be careful with him and rich would be the one to marry him, Eddie giggled and said okay. now, got explain why Richie blamed himself for Conner being an ass. Richie did have a little voice say no, when Eddie asked if he could date Conner but he wanted to see him happy, so he said yes. because he was so selfish, he was selfish enough to let eds date a complete psychopath so he could see eddies smile. He shouldn't have done that.
now trigger warning for anyone who has been in this situation before. Conner, like a week after Richie and Eddie broke up, had threatened to kidnap Eddie if they ever broke up, this made Richie furious. why is he gonna just trap Eddie in the relationship like that. not to mention Conner had stated that basically Eddie couldn't talk to or give his attention to any guy for more that two seconds. which includes singers he liked. Conner got jealous over David Bowie. ONE GUY HE WOULD BE CLOSE TO NEVER MEET IN HIS LIFE. let alone the fact that he is one of the prettiest guys in the world? like. make that make sense. it enraged Richie even more. so many time he wanted to tell Eddie that he broke up with the wrong guy and play it off as a joke but, he didn't feel in the mood to make inconsiderate jokes. because it would upset Eddie. Time skip ahead, Eddie finally had enough of Conner's stuff. he was being too sexual and kept asking him to send and it was making Eddie uncomfortable. considering Conner is 19 and Eddie is 17. like pure pedophilia. anyways. Richie never knew what he saw in him. his face was weird. he didn't look, appetizing? in any way. he looked like a douche. and he was. but Eddie had enough and sent a breakup text. nothing bad happened but Conner started to play victim. "its all my fault" yes yes it fucking is. now Don't cry your the one who was making his Eddie spaghetti feel uncomfortable you were the one pissing him off you were the one making Eddie mad 24/7. fuck you. despite what the situation is, Eddie is still Richie's, not literally but Richie would like to think so. but that's besides the point. Richie may not deserve someone like Eddie Kasprak, but you definitively don't deserve him you fucking prick. wow. anyways.
now its Valentine's day. Richie wants to get him back but isn't feeling like getting rejected again. by the most amazing, sweet, fucking spectacular guy on earth. the only guy who has treated him the way he has dreams of being treated. liker a person. the only guy that can outwit him with jokes, that can make the same joke maybe even worse. the only guy that Richie feels is. perfect. hes now sitting down writing his feelings. he is texting Eddie, he had just got done at the dentist. hes in pain and Richie wants to be there for him, but realistically he can't. because Richie is me. and Eddie. is 2 hours and 30 minutes away. all i want to do is hug him. all i want is for us to be happy together again and to be together, because rn im listening to our playlist, and atm our song is playing and i cant stop crying. i cant stop. i want him back. more than anything. and i hate to say it. i love him more than everything. i love him more than IT. and that's saying a lot. Richie out.