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Kokichi Ouma had felt quite a few different emotions throughout his life.
He had felt anger, resentment, sadness, loneliness, love, happiness, hate, regret, guilt, and hundreds of other varying feelings.
If there's one thing he'd never felt before though, he would say it would be jealousy. He had been a little envious of other people's happiness before, sure, but he was pretty content with his life thus far. He never felt truly jealous over anything, or anyone, and he never planned on doing so. There's no point in being upset over what others have.
But, that's a lie, isn't it?
Because if that were true, then what was this feeling bubbling up inside his chest as he saw Kai- Momota walk hand in hand with Saihara?
Kokichi should feel nothing over this. It had been nearly a month since he and Momota had dated, and he had long since gotten over whatever feelings were left inside him.
So why was it so painful to watch Momota smile wider than he had ever smiled when with Kokichi? Why did stupid Saihara make him laugh so loudly, and relax so easily? Why did it feel so- wrong?
Kokichi's head began to ache as he thought about the what's and why's, but he couldn't stop himself.
He shook his head and slapped himself internally. Him and Momota were over. Momota had made that very clear the last time he'd had a proper conversation with him.
Kokichi got up from his table at the cafe he was sitting outside of, and was planning on leaving without a sound, be of course Saihara just had to see him.
"Ouma-kun? Is that you?" he asked, stopping Kokichi in his tracks.
He silently cursed to himself, before swiftly turning around with a wide grin on his face.
He didn't miss how tense Momota became the second he showed his face.
"Nope!! I'm his evil, long lost twin known famously among pirates as the Horse King!!!" he exclaimed.
"So it is you! I don't think I've ever seen you outside of school. How are you doing?" Saihara asked politely, forcing Kokichi into conversation.
"I'm doing terribly actually!!" Kokichi said, crocodile tears welling up in his eyes, "I just found out my mother died of ligma!!!" If he got Momota or Saihara mad enough, maybe they'd let him leave.
Saihara stared at him in confusion, "Ligma? What's-"
"Anddd I think that's enough of that!!" Momota interjected, speaking for the first time since Saihara dragged Kokichi into conversation, "He's just trying to trick you, Shu," Saihara blushed slightly at the nickname, "Ouma, don't be a dick to Shuichi please"
Kokichi fake pouted, "Aww but he's so much fun to tease! Aren't you Saihara-kun?" Kokichi smiled.
Saihara jumped at being addressed and a small flush creeped up his cheeks, "I ah, I wouldn't say that.. Wait, kun? Why'd you-"
"Anyways!! I have a very important evil Supreme Leader meeting to attend, so I unfortunately have to bid you two adieu. It was nice seeing ya!!" Kokichi interrupted, not giving Saihara the chance to question the sudden change in honorifics, "Byebyeee!!"
Kokichi turned and skipped away, not letting either of them respond.
Once he was a sure distance away from them, he took one last glance behind him.
Momota was relaxed again, and was talking animatedly to Saihara, who giggled at something he said.
That smile was back on his face though. The one that was apparently reserved for Saihara.
Kokichi turned back around and walked the rest of the way to his apartment.
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Kokichi hadn't stopped thinking about them.
He had been home for hours. He did chores around his apartment, finished up some homework, watched some mindless television, but nothing could distract him from thinking of how happy Momota looked with Saihara.
He never smiled like that with Kokichi.
Why didn't he ever smile like that with Kokichi? Why did Saihara get the privilege of that shining smile that could light up a thousand galaxies?
Some part of him already knew the answer to that.
God, he should be pissed with Saihara right now. He had been friends with Kokichi just a few months ago! They did their homework and mulled over puzzles together, and he even helped prank Momota once! Now he was dating him? Barely a month after their breakup?
God, he should be livid right now.
But he couldn't find it in himself to be.
After seeing Momota so happy, so relaxed, how could he be? He was the reason Momota had so much energy, so much life.
How could he ever be pissed over that?
He had really gone soft.
Kokichi groaned, his cheeks sore from all the frowning he had done.
Before another bad thought could enter his brain, an imaginary picture of Momota's smile invaded his mind instead.
His frown relaxed and he sighed.
God, he wishes he could hate Saihara. It would be so much easier to loathe the man who made his ex-boyfriend so happy, but he couldn't.
Not when he made Momota smile like that.
Kokichi felt something wet slide down his cheek. He brought a hand up to his face, and felt as another tear dropped down.
"Heh.." he chuckled to himself. Crying over the man he drove away?
How pathetic.
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