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you know i am (nothing) like the monster you made me

Summary:

ever since his episode with the portal, bryan's nightmares have gotten worse. it's an unfortunate but familiar routine, and he's convinced he'll be fine.

thankfully, his partner is understanding.

Notes:

OKAY SO. AU BREAKDOWN!!
- jon and bryan reunite, and move in together during season three :3
- the ENTIRETY of season four is rewritten. to break it down:
● when bryan and adrien meet, they never start the plan to bring back matthew
● bryan is only bitter and angry for, AT MOST, a month. after this happens, he just spirals into a depressive episode and desperately attempts to appear "normal"
● near the end of the season, bryan spirals into ANOTHER episode and impulsively takes matthews body to the portal
● when reviving matthew doesn't work, bryan realizes the severity of his episode and decides everyone would be better off without him. into the portal he goes!
- season five is also rewritten! basically portal bryan just causes chaos with au bryan lmao. theyre trauma buddies :3
- when bryan comes back from the portal, he is on his hands and knees begging for forgiveness. everyone is just like "? you were depressed and episodic dude its chill. get therapy though"
- bryan can reset back to his portal form when scared, angry, or generally upset. he is Terrified of this because he's worried that he'll lose control and portal will overtake his mind completely

basically all of my fics take place in this timeline unless stated otherwise! and on that note daily reminder CC!JON FANS STAY OUT!!! KEEP YOUR FUCKASS GROOMER LOVING HANDS AWAY FROM ME

(See the end of the work for more notes.)

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the stars engulf him. tentacles grasp at his limbs, the only thing in sight just being vast space. for some reason, he can't bring himself to be alarmed. the void has become familiar, and he knew how this was going to go. the tentacles pull him down deeper and deeper, and he finally lets out a cry.

the portal consumes him, and takes over his mind.

bryan wakes up, overheating and terrified. the bed is empty, and he can't help but panic. he pulls the fluffy blanket close to his chest and starts to cry. he hates this. he hates this. these dreams are so fucking dumb to cry over, yet here bryan is, sobbing his eyes out. why is it so hot??

he doesn't notice how much time passes, but he hears the door open and soft footsteps. there's a pause, and bryan hates the sound of his choked up breathing. “oh, bee…” a soft voice mutters, and he feels them sit down. 

the person holds bryan's hands, and gestures at his head. “you should… probably put that out?”

he's confused for a moment, before connecting the dots. “wait, am i—” he feels at his hair, and is met with a fistful of flames. bryan panics and aggressively pats down his hair. 

the person laughs, and brushes the hair out of bryan's face so he can see. 

oh, it's jon. 

OH, IT'S JON!!

bryan pulls him into a tight hug, and jon laughs even harder. “dude, be careful!! you're gonna break my ribs or something—”

“we have a child together, do not call me dude.”

jon wheezes, and bryan lets go of him. he holds his hands again, rubbing his thumb against his knuckles. “did you have another nightmare or something?” he tilts his head, almost like a confused dog, and bryan can't help but giggle slightly. 

“yeah…” bryan sighs. “i'm sorry. i should've woke up sooner—”

“no no no, it's fine!!!” jon strokes bryan hair, getting a small purr in response. “i noticed your alarm didn't wake you up, so i assumed so.” there's a pause, before he lights up again. “oh, oh! i made you french toast!”

bryan pauses. “...i do like french toast.”

the two giggle together, and jon helps bryan out of bed. “thank you,” bryan whispers, and jon smiles. 

“you're welcome, dear.”

Notes:

i dunno why im specifying this but i feel the need to in my Bones. when bryan says "we have a child together" hes referring to gregory. for some reason i was rereading this i was like "hey that sounds like mpreg" and immediately got Terrified.

thank u for reading!! i will post thats actually long Soon i prommy. mari write a fic with 1k words or over challenge (IMPOSSIBLE)