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Outlast

Eddie Gluskin

So we all know Eddie is delusional right, oh his darling likes drinking blood, a bit strange but that’s ok he’ll get whatever she’ll need, don’t like going into the sun that’s fine, you probably just get sun burned easily, he’ll just make you a outfit so the sun doesn’t touch you, a fine lady indeed, in short he wouldn’t care about that, the only thing he cares about is that you met his standards, and can fit into the role he wants, a nice little wife, that will have his children, and be his for eternity, though you have your doubts about this, you mean your still technically dead, and can’t have children, and a eternity for him would be just a couple years for you, hmmm maybe you should just keep that to yourself, and maybe steel a baby just for him,

miles upshur

you two would met in the asylum outside, you gave him time to breath and helped clam him down a bit, he would probably be the one to notice something off about you but would ignore it for his own sanity, oh your hands are always cold, that’s just because of the weather, you don’t like the sun? That’s fine everyone has preferences, wanting to stay outside when father Martin died, he doesn't blame you that shit was fucked up, but if you two get out together, it would be because you saved him form the guards as the walrider killed them, when he wakes up in his car hands bandage, reality would set in,

he would feel betrayed that you pretend to be something your not. as well as scared for his own safety, you need to promise that you won't hurt/kill him and that your a "good" vampire, miles will need time to think about this and decides he will give you a chance if you help him tell the world about murkoff then he'll trust you, oh and he will ask a million questions about you, he can't help it, its his job, one of the questions included if you sparkle like in twilight, you didn't like that question as much as he did, kind of thinks of you like his bodyguard always with him to make sure he’s ok, it makes him a bit flushed knowing your serious about protecting him, one you guys get murkoff out of business, you ask if he'll become yours, he thinks about how this can work and since he’s kinda possessed by the entity, he guess hey maybe this can work, just please don’t bring blood or guts anywhere near him, he might make a joke but he can’t since what happened at murkoff,

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simon henriksson

your joking, will not believe you at first, but the more he thinks about it, the more it kinda makes sense, mostly seeing you at night, not eating anything, not liking anything about vampire moves, your fangs………, he’s paranoid? but just to make sure he’ll ask you to prove it, not really expecting much, not until he sees you go over the bars and jump off the building, he just stands for a minute, holy SHIT!!! he quickly goes over and looks down expecting a very dead you, only to see you waving up at him completely fine, what the fuck!?

kinda scared of you, but when he takes time and you explaining what you are, he will romanticises the fuck out of this, like he has a hot vampire partner, that kills and eats people, so hot, now let’s not forget that simon is not in the right stare of mind and is suffering form anxiety and depression, will ask you to hurt bite him and leave marks, wants to be with you all the time, and if you seem uncomfortable, he will feel bad overthink and hurt himself for doing that, as well as thinking you could just get anyone you want and leave him, that when you have to reassure him he's the only one you want and your not leaving him, fantasies about you two being vampires and killing people, asked if you could turn him into one and you shut that idea down, saying you can't really have a future like this, he doesn't really see anything wrong with that, as long if he’s with you it’ll be fine, he even asked one day if he can watch you kill and eat someone, it gets a bit much even for you,

if you want this to stop you’ll have to sit him down and explain you can’t do that, and also how you don’t eat humans, he’ll be a bit bummed out by that, but understands that makes you uncomfortable so he’ll stop, oh and also reassure him that your not mad at him, or else he will do into a depressing episode, you will answer his questions about vampires and what they got wrong in media, while making sure he’s ok, and trying not to

Resident evil

ethan winters

He’s not that fazed, with what he went through in the village, he’s just thankful your not like the other ones, but a little hurt, you kept this form him and is worried if the mold is affecting you, ask how you got infected with the mold, which you tilt your head confused, not really knowing what that is, and say you’re been a vampire for some time and haven’t heard of it, ok now he’s a little shocked, your a completely different entity then the mold, will not tell Chris about you, worrying if he found out he might try something, will ask if you can eat anything else then blood, you say any meet or blood is good, you say the reason human thinks vampires only eat humans is because back in the day most vampire hunted humans for fun, Ethan is put off by that, the only time you guys spent time together is at night, then you watch a movie and cuddle him before he goses to bed, considered moving somewhere cloudy for you but shuts that down as he won't be able to see rose, him and Mia has shared custody, will stay with you when you met rose for the first time, just in case, but when he sees how gentle you are with her, he relaxes, will never admit he didn’t trust you, feeling bad for doing so even when you say it’s fine. A bit sad you can’t have kids together but will not let you know that besides rose is enough, and he’s just happy to be with you.

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Eddie gluskin form outlast

oh Darling~ would love that you love his voice, he never really thought about his voice before more so his outfits or looks, but he dose suppose it is quite manly, you would think he sing a lot all ready, but now that he knows you like his voice he would sing all the time when doing stuff, or hum, would sing you to sleep if you asked really, would love getting praise for his voice, and would love it when you would get flustered, it makes him a bit flustered himself if he’s being honest, and also makes him feel….a bit in control if you could say, if you say his voice would be perfect for reading books for the children, oh you little minx, you just know how to get him all worked up.

ethan winters form resident evil

Holy he’s 37 years old?! Fuck yes!!!

oh, really? A bit flustered by that, says thank you and makes sure to talk to you more, will ask what exactly you like about it, you say you like it when he sings songs, makes you feel warm, well then he’ll make sure to humm more then, and I mean more, when doing the dishes when sweeping and when helping with the laundry, your comment about his voice made him feel good about it, so he’ll use it.

Sophia form cry of fear

Awwww thank you! Will feel really good about it, and hug you, definitely didn’t like her voice a bit, thinking it sounded a bit childish, but when you said you liked it, it made her feel a little bit more better about it, will definitely sing to you, if you allow it, and also the lullabies with her voice oMG, her voice is just so dreamy, definitely made her day, and her entire relationship with you, just remember to ignore Simon’s glares, haha yeah, he’s a third wheel. Lol

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Ethan winters

the most mature about this, will ask what’s wrong, and why your refusing to sleep, what he dose depends on the answer, if you refuse to tell him, it will hurt and he will back off, for awhile, he dosen’t like serects, that was the whole reason he and Mia got divorced, so please just tell him and don’t make him pry it out of you, if it’s nightmares, he gets it, I mean you don’t go through a whole creepy ass village killing monsters just to save your,

Daughter, form being some sort of vessel, without getting nightmares, asks if you want to talk about it witch he will listen and try to give advice, shares some of his nightmares too, just so you don’t feel alone, he will be sad you get them too but he guess it can’t be help, will do anything to help, he likes to put on a oil burner to help,

Now if you won’t sleep because you want to play games or be on your phone, one question, why? Just please go to bed, will sulk about it, and how you won’t join him for sleep, but if it gets really bad, as your partner he will take your phone and electronics away, he worries ok so don’t fight him on this please, just cuddle with him and go to bed, dosen’t that sound nice?

And if it’s a self harm thing, (which I do) he’s asking why and what’s makes you do that, so he can help, my god let him help, did something happen? Are you upset? Oh he will be all over you, saying you can get though this together, and helping you feel better about yourself, also saying sorry he didn’t notice sooner, will keep a eye on you, makes sure to make the bed perfect as well as that oil burner, you’ll see it helps, puts you right to bed

miles upshur

Go To Sleep! He dosen’t care, (he dose) he will make you go to bed, on you phone? give him that! now it’s his until tomorrow, your welcome, oh your doing it to hurt yourself, not gonna slide, he will fight you and make you go to bed ether by annoying you and saying he love you and wish you would go to bed with him (mf making y feel bad) or pulling you to bed with him, making sure to lock his arms around you so you don’t get away, will definitely get a Oli burner with rains sounds, if’s that will help, though will make you talk to him about it tomorrow, it’s bed time now

having nightmares? Talk to him about it please! He will give you honest answers, ask him to sleep next to you alright let’s go, will rub circles on your back, wake up form a nightmare he there with some hot chocolate and a funny movie on stand by, let it out he’s ready, will also get you a dream catcher, and hang it on the bed frame saying it’ll get rid of both your nightmares, it dosen’t, it was a nice thought though

simon henriksson

fuck yeah you two can stay up together, but like seriously he dose get worried for you, when hanging out he asks why you don’t sleep, if it’s nightmares shit he’s dealt with them before, but he kinda got used to them, but he can remember how scared he used to be, will talk with you about it if you want, and will stay up watching over you to wake you up in case,

If you stay up just to play games or be online, will ask if you want to play games with him, knowing that you do that makes him feel a bit better about himself, half life all night baby!

if it’s like a self harm thing, he relates, actually remembers when he was a kid refusing to sleep for a couple of days because he didn’t get his way, or that one time he was in a really bad episode and didn’t sleep, and was enjoying not getting any sleep, though his mother made him stop and give him tablets to sleep,

ask if you want to stay awake together this time, kinda wanting to feel the tiredness and paranoia again, maybe hurt himself in the process, what can he say, he’s a sucker for a toxic relationship, and if him staying awake also makes you feel better about yourself win win, he’ll do it, but if he sees that it makes you uncomfortable or you get mad at him for it, he’ll apologise, hah he’s not really that good at this whole relationship thing huh? Will try and set a timer to sleep, both of you in bed, body’s tangled together, luring the other to sleep with the rhythm of your heartbeats,

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Ethan winters

If you ask he would let you, sitting on the couch and putting his feet up, surprisingly really Flustered and shy at first when you touch his feet (sounds a bit weird haha) not used to this, he’s uh usually the one doing this, then after awhile eases into it, laying on the couch relaxed, and makes some noise that he likes it, may put some oil on him as well, will shyly ask you to massage his shoulders as well, you can’t say no, Will massage you afterwards as a thank you, but doubt he’ll be as good as you, so just tell him what feels good, alright.

miles upshur

dosen’t like his feet being touched, and definitely not because he’s ticklish there, but you can massage his calves, has a few knots there that needs out, his calves are a bit hard to massage, he runs a lot ok, but putting some oil on and rubbing it on hard, he's gone, he's relaxed, and by the noises he makes, you think he likes it, really likes it, rates it 10/10 pls do the rest of him, he needs it after what he’s been through

waylon park

oh boy, likes getting massages, please treat him gently, especially his left ankle, don’t add to much pressure there, just whisper Sweet nothing into his ear as you rub all the tension away, so the guilt and the fear no longer strangles him alive every day, and if your gonna do his shoulder as well, just please, dont go too close to his neck especially if you add a lot of pressure near it, won’t have a break down, but it will give him some anxiety, so just be nice, run your hands along his skin and rub the tension all out, and he’s yours, 

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ethan

When at your family’s house, won’t notice how your family puts you down until a bit later, instead focusing on making a good impression, but when they say something about you he can’t not notice, will ask them to repeat what they said, and be confused why they would say that about you, will defend you, and say good things about you, will come to find you and ask what’s happening, only when you explain dose it make sense, will stay with you form then on, if anyone says anything, he will say something back defending you, definitely notice by now that they all talk bad about each other, he can’t handle that, is still respectful tho, not wanting to cause a fight,

Will not put up with them saying lies about you, and god he dose not like your family, their all a Buch of manipulators and hates how they put you down, if you guys don’t live together all ready, he will happily ask you to move in with him, just to get away form them, was not expecting your family to be like this,

9/10

miles

miles knows how to deal with people like them, and he dose not like them, when he came over and met your family for the first time, he could already tell by their snarky remarks towards you, that their bad people, and also putting you down in front of him, alright if there gonna play like that, he’s game, will make sneaky remarks in front of your family, as well as making sure to show off how great both of you are together, telling you how beautiful you are and lovely in front of them, basically telling them how kind and loving his spouse is,

and if they tryed to bring up something you “did” like looking at other guys or being up how terrible you were years ago or some shit like that, he will fight fire with fire, will being up something that they did years ago or something, or someone told him about it, how dose he know? He’s a journalist okay it’s his job, won’t get in a fight with them, dosen’t want to get stuck in the in between, also if someone says something bad to you he will call them out on it and ask them why they said that out loud, will go home with you with that whole family fighting, is pissed off your own family is like that, and sad you had to deal with that, will tell you how wonderful you are

10/10

eddie

now I don’t know why you would want to introduce him to your family, but if you did, Eddie he has his fair share of narcissistic traits, if a man spoke about woman, that is if he can tell it’s a man, he wouldn’t mind it, wouldn’t mind half the stuff they say actually to busy in his own head about meeting his darling family, but if he noticed it, or if they say something truly awful to you, he will not be able to take it, how dare they say something like that to his darling, aren’t they supposed to be your family, will bring back some memories of his own family, and how they didn’t say or did anything when something bad happens, would probably hurt them, and if you need reassurance, he will tell you what a amazing and kind darling you are, and again he is delusional so if they say something he doesn’t like, or think one of them is trying to seduce him, he’ll kill them, simple

2/10

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simon henriksson

how did you two even become friends? Or better yet get into a relationship, so it’s ether you knew each other when you were kids or both your moms focused you to talk to each others cause they thought you guys would get along, simon would understand why you find it hard to talk to people much less interact with them, god when ever he’s around people he gets massive anxiety and feels like he’s gonna throw up, would rather stay with the friends he has, which is you and Sophie, if you don’t want to talk to people he won’t force you too, he’s in the same boat after all,

but if you want to try talk with people, he will be surprised but won’t stop you, tbh he wants to be able to talk to people too just it gets hard sometimes, will watch you try and talk to people, will be a bit jealous if you succeed, but won’t hold it against you, it’s his fault hes not trying, if you ask if he wants to try with you, he’ll say sure, but not really talking more like staying around you as you talk and just getting used to that person, if someone ask him something he’ll just say a few words back, doesn’t really think he did good, but if you praise him, and say he did good, he’ll get out of his little self hate episode and think he did good as well,

lol if one of you is at a food place then you have to play rock paper sinners to see who will oder, that or you call Sophie

Waylon park

sweetheart please, wonders why you don’t like talking to people, will try his best to help, but he understands that talking to people can be exhausting sometimes, but also knows you can’t avoid it forever, that dosen’t stop him form talking for you tho and being the main conversation starter, sometimes he’ll ask you something when talking to someone, like he’s not even doing that to put you on the spot or anything, just that he honestly forgot something or he wants to hear your voice, as much as he’ll like for you to be comfortable and relaxed, you need to learn to talk to people, even when you don’t want to, he knows that if you don’t you won’t be able to get though life and sometimes he won’t be around to talk for you,

if you want to try and talk with people tho, he’ll be very supportive of it, that means bringing you with him to places (not work), and tries to get you into conversations, will hold your hand if you get into a conversation reassuring you your doing good, he’s with you one step at a time,

lynn and Blake Langermann

blake is the more understanding one, has trouble talking to people sometimes too, thats why he’s the cameraman, Lynn is mostly the one doing the talking, she is a natural talker, Lynn dosen’t get how you two find trouble with it, will take both of you to a public area, and make you guys talk to people, dosen’t want her partners to be hermits, uh no offence of course, want you guys to live a full life is all, but if you insist both of them would be the one doing the talking for you, often letting you stay in your comfort zone while occasionally taking you out of it by asking you questions sometimes and getting you to reply, don’t worry they’re both right here with you, so there’s no reason to be nervous, no one is out to get you,

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Miles,

you came to a place like this looking for your husband/wife, only to find another hell on Earth, you met miles in B block, you both were trying to get out, miles is shocked and relieved that there’s a actual sane person here, and with the look of your Clothes you don’t look like you work for murkoff, will ask you some questions, while also answering yours, you tell him your looking for your partner, and instead you got trap inside this mess, you both form a alliance coming form kindness and a neutral hate for murkoff,

turns out you two work batter together then alone, miles help you navigate the dark while your not afraid to fight back and cause some distractions, miles starts to warm up to you, with your Constant reinsurance that you’ll both make it out of here, and that fire in your eyes, it’s hard not too, but then again it could also be trauma bonding, he’s not too sure,

is shocked when you try and use a gun at one of the variants, pacifically Chriss walker, that dosesn’t work so well, and now your both running for your lives, he’s Fucking pissed didn’t he tell you, you can’t fight them, you try to explain yourself, saying it was a habit, and fuck he can’t stay mad at you, especially not in this situation,

but something happened and you two had to split up, miles at this moment feels massive anxiety, knowing you don’t have a camera like him to navigate and him not being there to help, he try’s to clam himself, telling himself you’ll be ok and you’ll find each other or he’ll look for you, wait but what if your already dead, oh god he’s going to be sick, or well more sick then he already is,

when he’s caught by terger and gets out, he thinks he may ask you for that gun, when hiding he hears your screams and try’s to find you, finds you in a bathroom poring water on your very decapitated hand only to reattach it, he stares bewildered as you stare back shocked, “no fucking fair” no but seriously what the fuck are you, and why do you get your body parts back and he doesn’t, try’s not to be scared of you thinking your some kind of variant, when you explain what happened at a certain house, you say you might be infected with the mold, no wait you are, but you can’t except that,

Safe to say miles would be forgiven on that, and would feel bad that happened to you, but if you can reattach your hand then surely that means you can’t die right? Begs you to take his camera to expose murkoff if he dies, and says to bring this place to hell for what they did, of course

When you two are in the elevator, you ask terger about the stats of your partner, with him replying that there probably dead by now, while miles pushes him back killing him, miles is worried about you, seeing how defeated you look, has to make sure there’s no one around before trying to comfort you, grabs your hand to lead you out with him, despite knowing you can’t die he’s still rather protective, wanting to stay with you all the time, mostly for support and his own sanity knowing there’s another sane person here,

If you point out he doesn’t have to hold your hand all the time, he’s say it’s just to make sure your here, but if you insist, he will hesitantly let go, dosen’t know why he acts this way towards you, for some reason all he can think about is you and getting out of here, will have to remind himself that you can heal and reattach your limbs when he can not, a painful reminder,

when in the engine room, you would try and get him to turn back saying you’ll be fine if anything happened, the mold is hard to kill after all, in which he refuses and comes with you, not wanting you to go in there alone, when he gets thrown up and down by the walrider, all you can do is watch shocked as he finely falls down

after it’s done you help miles to the entrance only to open the door and get shot, all you can hear is some distance screaming as you fade in and out of consciousness, only to wake up and see a very different miles looking down at you,

so your both technically dead now, great

If you two got out of there, you guys are now on the run form murkoff, and bringing them down for what they did, great, miles is a bit different, more touchy and protective then before, not knowing what to do after this, you ask if you two should go your separate ways, besides your partner is dead, what else is there, he shuts that down, saying you two should stay together forever since you two are the only ones who knows, oh yeah and miles is definitely still interested in the mold and what you can do, seeing as he’s kinda a vestal now, what’s to know all about it,

while on the run you two go to your house and get what ever you need, when leaving your eyes lock on to a letter one you found at the baker’s house, it was a file on some kind of town, that no one knows about, and with miles saying to hurry up, you call out to him saying you might know a place,

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Eddie

With this man you won’t be going anywhere, Eddie is determined, now he may not say it, but he lives for the chase of his pry disguising it in his head as to find a perfect wife, it doesn’t matter what you say to him to get him off your back, it’ll simply go in one ear and out the other, as he’s chasing you down, this man is honestly your worst enemy, he gets on your nerves quite a lot, your just trying to find your wife/husband, and then there’s this fucker fucking everything up,

And oh you hate this man with a passion, always on your trail dosen’t matter where you are, everywhere’s you go he’s always there, it’s just annoying at this point and you even told him that, he responded with sadness before getting angry, he’s not giving up on you, but even with how much you hate him you can’t help but emphasise with the things he says, you also feel a bit sorry for him, nobody’s deserve that, but then again, this guys a Fucking psycho now,

now if he catches you, and you just so happen to have certain parts, dick saw, and because you can’t die so easily because of the mold you might just pass out, tho your not going out without a fright, finding some scissors, and oh what’s this? You tried to cut him? You dirty slut, how dare you, after what he dose.

you tried to kill him only to get your face smashed in, and your body getting tossed to the side, walking up a couple hours later, seeing him operating on someone, while you try to get away, knocking something over , and Eddie hearing it looks over, is shocked your still alive, but can it be, it must be love after all, will be overjoyed that your still alive, saying your perfect and that you must love him, his delusions getting in the way,

fuck man now your Stuck in an abuse relationship you didn’t ask for, with this psycho holding you hostage, handcuffed to a fucking bed post, with a fucking dress on, you really hate this guy, worse then the bakers house, you actually want to kill him for the amount of shit he put you through,

it doesn’t matter what you say to him now, your perfect he just has to make sure, won’t register that you’ll already married or for him to get away for you, he will make a honest woman out of you, and you two will live happily,

some days are filled with you two screaming at each others, which ultimately ends with his hands around your throat and a sound of a snap, only for you to heal and wake to him next to you saying apologies, other days are you trying to think of a way out, while being the “good wife” Eddie wants you to be

staying there for a long time however gets exhausting to hate him, is your partner even alive? Are they ok!? Are they thinking of you? and because of the mold and your determination to live, it makes it difficult to die, and with his sick and twisted love, you think it’s starting to affect you, hearing the voice of a little girl, this last for a long time, until one of you kill each other that is, till death do you part

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blake

Now let’s pretend the morphogenetic engine dosen’t effect you real quick, because of the mold, it only makes you have really bad pains in your stomach,

you guys met at Ethan’s house as soon as Lynn was taken, you helped bandage blake up and stayed with him in the basement, you two watched as Ethan was killed, there was no time for you two to know each others the only thing you do know is that your both looking for your significant other,

helping each other though the horrors of this town, you find somewhere to lay low to breathe, you get to know each other a little more, your partner was taken when you guys was hiking, and In turn, you find out what he and his wife dose, though this hell Blake starts to depend on you, for emotional support and his delusions, though that doesn’t mean your ok though, your seeing stuff that an’t there, you feel your body changing, and that doesn’t help with the massage pain in your stomach, you guess whatever that light was, is doing this, Blake never wants you to leave his side, often begging you to stay a bit like a child who beg to sleep in their parents bad after a nightmare,

you notice his mind deteriorating, but you don’t have time for that right now, Blake has seen the way you smash the villagers heads in when you two have no where to do, says thank god and thanks you, will hold your hand like a child and squeeze it to help with what’s happening, he feels a bit more safe with you, maybe when this is over, you him Jessica and Lynn can become friends, but that doesn’t happen as you two navigate the mines, that’s when vel tells you your partner is dead, Blake has never seen someone so angry, but his delusions get in the way, the next time he wakes up your gone and he panics, running for his life and calling yours and Lynn’s name, maybe even crying a little, the next time he sees you is with his child in his arms, and Lynn’s and (that guy forgot his name) body next to him, he cry’s when he sees you, he says he thought you were dead not paying any mind to your alted form

the mold affected your hands and legs but your faces and body stayed the same, you reveal that you killed vel, it was much easier with the mutations, when you ask what he’s doing, he try’s and show you his daughter, but you see nothing, you hear a noice and look out the window of the Church, you run to him and say you two need to get down somewhere, but he just mumbles out words, you don’t have time for that, so you drag him with you behind the Church and in the basement you hold him still, him crying for a child you didn’t see, you say sorry as you hear the flash of light and close your eyes,

When you wake up you hear movement all around you, (because of the mold) and pushing the wooden bords off of you, you look down at Blake and quickly feel his neck, he’s still breathing thank god, you carry him with you seeing a Buch of people in yellow suits arrive, help, you question but stop when they restrain a Survivor talking the others to take him back, (again super hearing because of the mold) no not help not help at all, and soo you hide in the shadows, waiting for Blake to wake up and to see how they got here

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Ethan winters,

Oh baby, Ethan is on it right away, you need pads he got them, chocolate right away, heat warmer you got it, to be honest he might even have your cycle written down, want to cuddle come here, he will cuddle with you all the time,

Ethan is just so loving and understanding it’s hard to stay mad at him for kidnapping you, especially when your so emotional, will get you chocolates or make you tea to make you feel batter, he’s also more touchy like this wanting to be near you even more and always keeping his hands on you, even offering to rub your belly if it hurts, you ask him for pads he got you, you don’t even question how he knows which one you use, put off by this, but anyways, will try and adjust anything to your liking, like pillows, blankets anything, just wants to make you comfortable, but it just kinda makes you uncomfortable instead, with his actions, but overall 10/10

ethan doesn’t get embarrassed if he’s getting pads for you, he did it for Mia and now for you, if some people do look at him, doesn’t really think it’s a big deal, is it unusual for man to do this? But all he really wants is to get back to you as fast as he can, and spend time together,

miles upshur

miles would take this opportunity to get closer to you, wanting to be your support when you get sad or angry, would gladly get you chocolate, or what ever your craving at the moment, is not embarrassed when he goes to the store to get you pads, dosen’t care about the stares he gets when he’s looking through them all, doesn’t get why some men feel embarrassed about this, your just getting pads for your partner, oh and also fucking hate how many pads there are, and will come back with like 4 packets just in case, if you get cramps, will offer to message them, putting himself behind you and rubbing your sides or your back, getting a bit confident and giving your back a kiss only to get a slap in return,

Oww! Will hide the heat pack, so he can cuddle you and rub your stomach, cleary taking advantage of your situation for his own benefit, motherFucker, will try not to be mad if you complain about something due to being emotional, dosen’t like that woman get period and cramps, thinks it’s a bit unfair and hates seeing his darling in pain, but seeing you being nice to him for one, and letting him hold you, even if you say it’s just for comfort, he thinks it’s not all bad, will for him, oh and will ask in a joking tone, if you want him to help to relieve some of the pain, if you get what I’m saying, that earns him a nasty look, and a slap, it was a joke, not a joke if you agree tho

simon henriksson

hates when your on your period because your always mean to him, but bears though it because he’s a man! But like will try and bring chocolate while your on your monthly, is still a obsession bastard and want to be near you, even when you want some space, this is why he says your mean btw, if you ask him to get you some pads at the store, he will freak the fuck out, he wants to do this for you, he really dose, but if there’s a lot of people and if they stare, he’s walking the fuck out of there feeling like a massive disappointment, if you ask why he will get defensive and say some passive aggressive things to you, and also feel like shit after that too and say sorry,

you will have to go to the store with him to get them sadly, would offer to make you tea to help with your cramps, did that with his mom, likes to rub your sides or stomach and just any part of you, face would be burning, and would just love to be close to you, would have no idea what to do if your crying over something, would do his best to comfort you, and just give you chocolate to make you feel better, didn’t know a lot about periods even with his mom, so he’s just learning form you, if it gets real bad will quickly ring up Sophie to help, thanks Sophie, would love to just lay in bed with you, if you don’t like talking to people when your on your monthly, likes being the only one around you, (this toxic little man)

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Ethan

Ethan is a doofus, and always made you laugh with his stupid observations, good at giving advice too, would definitely let you stay over at his and mia house if you didn’t have anywhere to go, granted you have a good relationship with mia as well, play fights, lots of play fights, like fighting over the last cookie that short of thing, and mia would be just so done, Ethan growing up i would feel like he had some anger issues as a kid but would grow out of it, if you stay at his and mia house this man would not hesitate to bring out the baby photos to show mia one day just to embarrass you or just to take a trip down memory lane, also when he's feeling up to it steels some of your food when you have some, could be some chips or a piece of your Sandwisch, anything really, and you getting angry always make him laugh evilly, oh and definitely asked you to be one of his best man at his wedding doesn’t matter if your a girl or not,

when mia disappeared would ask you to help look for her, and would appreciate you staying with him to make sure he's ok, and to make sure he doesn't do anything dramatic, oh and when you guys get to louisiana thats only becuase you saw him get in his car at night and fallowed him to see what he's doing, and when you guys are at the other town you comfront him about what he did and not telling you, and after a fight you two go in side only because you want to get this over with and then go home not trusting this place, would definitely priorities your safety over his, always making sure your ok first before himself, being a protector and all, it gets really annoying, 1 because you can protect yourself and 2 you don't want him to die or get hurt more then he already has because of you, this behaver will affect you in the future, after the town in louisiana you two would probably live together again, you two being somewhat more closer then before yet distend at the same time, well mostly you being distend because of went down in louisiana and seeing him get hurt over and over again just to save you form being killed, the guilt is too much,

but mia would find out and have a talk with you about it, mia feeling the same you two wouldn't have gotten hurt if she didn't take that job, mia then got you to talk to ethan about it, and after it, you two feel much better, heck you two would probably  job about what happed as a shot of inside joke, mia hates it so much

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simon

Really hates you sometimes, the other times meh, but how can he not hate the perfect child, that “dose no wrong” hates that his parents care about you more then him, but what’s worse if that your the only one that seams to care about him, and take the time to talk, even after yelling at you, you still love him, and god that makes him feel awful, as you two grow older his hate for you disappears, dosen’t tell you about his cutting, dosen’t tell anyone, only things you know of is his anxiety and depression, which you try and help him with, making him go outside, giving him a pat talk, as well as making him wash up his plate, he thinks he’s actually warming up to you more then before,

you acting like this actually really helps simon feel less alone, and don't get me wrong he still dose sometimes, but you and Sophie being there, helps him a lot, now video games lots of them, would have fun beating you at them, and would get angry when he loses, talks about depression and life, he feels a bit trapped and doesn't know what to do, he would feel a bit better if you could relate to what he's feeling, but if you don't thats fine too, just trying to understand is enough for him,

now after the black day your guys relationship changes, simon would feel like a burden every time you needed to help him with something, as well as you still having your legs, its just not fair, would sometimes make rude remakes towards you in anger, and hoping you would show your true face and leave him like his family, and prove your just like everyone laughing at him form behide his back, did you hope this would happen!? now a lucid part of him knows your not making fun of him or pitting him, that its only his paranoia, but this is hard to accept, and its hard to accept that you would still love him, even as this disgusting human form,

but each time you come back form your walks to cool down or say something back to his remakes not taking it, shows him, your not going anywhere, your not leaving him, and god he feels so emotional at that fact, your relationship almost goes back to being the same, with things still having to get though, buts thats ok, he'll try, for you,, then he'll try and accept the help form you and his doctor, and pls just stay with him, he can't do this alone

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sophie

Best sister ever, though she is a little doppy, will introduce you to all her friends if she got the chance, that’s means you know simon more on that later, sometimes you two stay awake all night watching movies like a sleepover, you two usually paint your nails and talk about boys, or girls, didn’t really have a lot of confidence back when she was Highschool so you would have to stand up for her a lot, appreciate simon for looking after her, sometimes you all hang out together walking the street of shockhome, eating ice cream is your favorite,

helping Sophie with her homework, Sophie being a shoulder to cry on if anything happened, will be that type of person to get you a blanket of your hyperfixation on it form Amazon or something, won’t tell you about what happened between her and simon, worrying that if she told you it would ruin yours and simon friendship, but when he doesn’t pick up your calls, then she tells you, you will have to remind her that what happened to simon wasn’t her fault and that it was ok for her to reject him, you two go and visit him in the hospital, holding Sophie hand almost all the time to calm her heart,

you all play Uno together

eddie

so I already made one for him but, ima add more things, also when Eddie is in the asylum he is 46, And and so reader is 32, so eddie is 14 years older then reader, to give you a bit of age, and in my headcanon your basically like his kid,

ok so would treat you differently on how you act, and your gender,

if your a girl like in my other fic he would teach you how to slow dance, how to clean and how to act, as well as kinda treating you like you can’t do anything, puts woman down a lot (haha mother fucker) he acts just like a father when he's in his 20s, would like for you to get a man to protect you and look after not wanting you to be alone, would not tolerate any disrespect towards you, form ANY man, and would gladly put them in their place, would not like to see his dad and uncle anywhere near you, he dose not want you to hurt, he would also like mother being away too, don't get him wrong he loves mother but he would like to be the only parental figure you look up to, as he deserves it for looking after you for all these years, not that she ever "really" did, thought about killing you sometimes when you acted out, but couldn’t, you were like his child as silly as he thinks it sounds like, you might have been the one to find out one of his hobbies, seeing him with a lady then seeing her on the news paper a week later,

so you did what anyone did, tip off the police and what do you know her body was found in his house, wound beg you not to think differently of him and that he's still your brother, but if you don’t his personality will turn a 180 and start yelling insults at you, this would terrify you, it will take a long time to recover form this,

if your a boy expect some tough love, would teach you a lot of things like how to change a tire how to put up a shelf, just real manly shit you know, will definitely be the one you go to advise for, and like with the girls one, would not like his family anywhere near you, wanting to be the only one you look to for guidance, and unlike the girls one eddie has a fear of older men being around you, doesn't matter if they are a friend or not, he will make his opinion clear, and make you drop them, he will never tell you the reason behide this never ever, he doesn't want you to hurt,

will definitely help you find a woman, which is actually really bad,  definitely passed his narcissistic side on to you, and if a girl doesn’t like you, would encourage you to call them names, it would take you a long time to get those ideals out of your head and start seeing woman as equals but even then it’s never really gone, would get you a drink on your 18 birthday, to celebrate you as a man, will also somehow find a excuse to get mother away form you, still wanting to be the only figure in your life to go to if you need anything, when he thinks your ready, thinks about showing you his murders thinking it’ll being you two closer together as brothers, he shows you, but even with the ideals you have instilled in your head, you knew this was fucked up

you are the one to call the police and get him arrested, you can’t bare to look at him as he shouts insults at you, him not being who you thought he was, like before this will take a long time to recover,

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Bierce-dark deception

“my my what a silly thing to think”

Bierce wouldn’t really take your self hated too seriously, I mean your in limbo with her, so obviously you did some bad things in your life time to get here, but that doesn’t matter now so get over it what’s done is done,

but if your self hatred gets too much that it interferes with the souls sards and you actually want to saffuer in hell, this will cause her to blow up at you, saying all shorts of mean things, but she doesn’t actually mean it or so she says afterwards, truth is Bierce doesn’t have that much empathy on her only really thinking about herself, but let her know how you feel and how she hurt you, and since your already in a relationship with her, and dare she do so, will actually think about what she said to you and how to make it better,

Bierce is a narcissistic and manipulative person, so she wouldn’t have too much trouble convincing you that your worth it and very much loved by her, and she fully believes that letting you date her should be a accomplishment you should be proud of, I mean she wouldn’t just date anybody especially since you don’t really have much to offer, she means in Riches or power, she dose appreciate your presence and your Beauty just as much as she loves fame, kinda,

now depending if your self hated stims form insecurities or actions you made that you now regret, she will do her best to comfort you in her own way, just don’t expect too much, it’s been a long time since she cared about someone this much,  if you did something in your past that you regret, she will try and empathize, but ultimately saying that there’s nothing you can do to change it, and the mature thing to do is to learn and grow form it, and the whole reason your here is to get a better life right, so just do what you’re told and PLS don’t die, and you will get a better life, where you won’t make that mistake again,

and if your self hatred stims form insecurities about your body or your life, well she wouldn’t be dating you if she at least didn’t find you a bit attractive now would she, or the personality made up for it, and if somebody made you hate your self, well to hell with them, your perfect just the way you are, and she will hear nothing about it, don’t even dare doubt her answer because it’s true!

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simon-cry of fear

“self hate? That must suck,”

Simon dose feel that sometimes but he doesn’t want to talk about it, but he will hesitantly tell you what he likes about you in hopes that maybe it will make you feel better, Simon guess that maybe it’s apart of life to feel this way, and he honestly dose get it, will tell you how pretty/handsome you look when you worry about how you look in the mirror, tho he is a bit embarrassed to admit it, he thinks you guys can work though this together,

if you did something you regret that you now feel guilty of, he would try and make you to get over it, saying that you could make up for it, if it’s something really bad then he would probably get anxious about it and take a smoke to help, while thinking about what you did and what to possibly do, would offer you one too, if your really stressed about it

overall he’s not the most helpful person to go to but he will try his best, and if someone said something to make you hate yourself then, he would be very angry about that due to the fact he feels like he’s not strong enough to protect you, and he’s getting anxiety thinking about telling people off, he will need another smoke,

I feel like he would try and hang around you more to show that he really dose like you, and he loves the way you look, so please don’t hate yourself, he thinks your perfect just the way you are

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Michael afton-fnaf

“Really? me too”

Michael knows that feeling way too well, it feels like he’s constantly under water, the guilt drowning him, these no way out, and no way to reverse what happened, if you hate yourself because of something you did that was really bad, he would be really understanding about that, taking his time to listen to you and your explanation, he’ll comfort you about it suggestion that you try and fix it to move forward,

if your self conscious about the way you look, he would act the same even if it’s dead mike or alive Mike,

if it’s purple Mike, he would be shocked and bewildered, I mean have you seen him?, he’s literally a walking talking rotten corpse, (and your like a total hottie) but besides that he’ll reassure you about how pretty/handsome you are, and how much he loves you, and honestly he’s just upset that you feel this way about yourself, and he would understand not liking how you looked, he’s really self conscious about how he looks now that he got into a relationship with you, not that it was a bad thing (I mean do people really want a zombie for a partner?…….Wait) but he just thinks your perfect, and will say so every time you doubt yourself,

same goes before the scoop, Mike would be shocked that you don’t like yourself, and (like before) constantly reassure you of how perfect you are, and how mush he loves you, even giving you kisses to prove it, he also kinda understands what your getting at to, the way you look in the mirror only to hate what you see, he’s understands that alright, (hates how much he looks like his father) but he also understands that with enough reassurance form him, maybe you won’t hate your self all the time.

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Simon henriksson

i think Simon would feel a bit more attracted to his parter if they got a piercing, gives him more to admire about them, and also because he thinks it really cool

is you wanted Simon to come with you, he will go, tho he won’t talk that much, is happy to spend time with you, you two getting lunch before your appointment,

would feel a warm feeling in his chest if you asked him to pick one out for you, but that feeling will be replaced with anxiety one he begins to overthink it,

will hold your hand though the process, and will watch as they stab the needle through your nose, he was just curious, 

Thinks you look even more attractive then before, and if you wanted more in the future, he will be A ok to go with you again, also wonders if he should get a piercing too, will ask you about it,

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micheal afton

Is surprised that you want one, but it’s a Pleasant surprise, knows he would have loved to get a piercing when he was younger, but if only he didn’t have his dad yap in his ear about it being stupid, so instead he was a gym bro, very support of it

would love to go with you, just have to call his stupid boss about work is all, and he’s good to go, will listen to you explain it while eating,

Will hold your hand if you want, squeezing it a couple of times, pats your back as they put the piercing in, says you did great, afterwards will ask if you want him to get you another lollipop, did not know it takes 12 months to heal,

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miles upshur

oh fuck yeah, thinks that’s a great idea, he might have wrote a article about piercing one, so he would know about them and how they’re done, 

is good to go with you for support, if you ask if he wants to get one with you, maybe one day but he knows he’s a bit too busy with finding new stuff to expose, and would probably forget to take care of it when it’s healing, not to mention if it got caught on anything,

like all the others, is happy to hold your hand, saying stuff like, just take a deep breath, is proud of you when you get it done, if your feeling a bit hungry again, he’ll take you to get a bite to eat, with the after care of it, will tell you it’s just Salt,

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Malak

woah woah woah, now this is a fun one,

malak would love this, and unlike all the others, I think he would actually want to be the one do to your nose ring, oh your not sure because he doesn’t have any experience, well, he can just get some on the poor ratchet souls that come down here, then he can do it,

would also love to pick some out for you, but will hold back as he know this is your first one,

tho if you insist on getting a human to do it, with enough convincing, he’ll disappointedly agree, tho will also offer to get the best for you,

is you ask why he doesn’t have any, he would say that he used to wear some but, it wasn’t good for business, so he had to get rid of them, 

Ones it’s healed gets you more nose piercings, accessorising is fun

would want you to get more, not to say he doesn’t love you if you didn’t have any, he just really likes them, he’s a metal fan

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Ethan winters,

Ethan has noticed your quiet and isolating behaviour, as you would isolate yourself often and even stay inside all day, he didn’t know what he was doing wrong, when he would ask what was wrong, you would always find it difficult to say, now watching form the kitchen as you drew on yourself with marker, it seems that everything he did was never enough, he walked over, and offered his arm to draw on instead, not wanting you to cover your skin with unwatchable ink

As he didn’t like seeing you sad, so he asked again what was wrong, you stared at him, he could tell you found it hard to answer, so instead writing on paper,

“I have thoughts about killing myself”

Alarmed would be a understatement, as Ethan would be freaking out on the inside trying to stay calm for you, Ethan would hug you and get you to tell him how he could help, and would feel even more hurt if you couldn’t get the words out,

Therapy, Ethan would get you a therapist straight away, and would come with you, if you try and say that if you confess to wanting to off your self, you will be put in a mental asylum, Ethan will reassure you that will not happen and he’ll be here every step of the way, (which honestly brings you to tears) if you feel like a burden because of this, Ethan will give you a thousand of words of reassurance, Ethan is trying to help you because he loves you, and if you died it would break his heart,

Will lose sleep over this situation, thoughts of what might have happened if you didn’t tell him and it was too late, especially if you have already committed self harm, such as cuts hitting yourself and hurting yourself enough to leave bruises, as well as other such methods, he would feel heart broken and so so frustrated, with himself for not noticing and helping sooner, and with you, for not trusting him enough to tell him, or being to scared to tell, and then he would feel guilty for feeling that way about you, he needs to focus on you right now,

Would stay near you a lot to make sure your alright and not hurting yourself, you may find this a bit annoying or feel guilty but please don’t, please don’t feel like a burden because he is trying to help you, he loves and cares about you, and he’s also showing it by trying to help you out of this pit of depression and self hatred,

Everything’s going to be fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine, fine

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simon

When you admit your thoughts about drying, simon would feel a bit overwhelmed, mind going blank as he stared ahead, simon knows you were depressed, you told him yourself, but he never knew you were like him, (take that as you will) sure he thought about killing himself coming a bit close to it one, when he was brewing in his own head, and the cuts wasn’t satisfying enough, and that was fine, he was fine with that,

but it’s different because it’s you, he tried to get better since dating you, because you helped him, helped himself, but you saying that messed a bit with simons head, making him sink back a bit into that darkness that was consuming him, like a Leach,

Simon would get anxiety about this, thoughts of seeing your lifeless body one day, laying in the bath tub, blood on top of the water coming form the cuts around your wrist and a bottle of pills at your side, thos were the thoughts that kept him up at night mind spiralling enough that he had to call you in the middle of the night to see if you were still alive,

When realizing that you were dealing with these thoughts even before meeting him, made him also a bit bitter, how much was a hypocrite were you when you were encouraging him to get better when you were doing the exact same thing, the anger won’t last long tho, it was only because he was tired,

He would spend more time with you, even putting off Sophie to do so, just to make sure you were fine, simon try suggest trying to get help, maybe telling someone or getting a therapist, but if you tell him your worried about being put in a mental hospital, he would go quiet, why would you think that, you had him get a psychiatrist that was purnell, simon will need a walk to cool off, (only because he’s overwhelmed)

If things stayed the way they are with you not getting worse or not hurting yourself, you guys would just talk about this, and he would still suggest telling someone who can make you feel better, and try and encourage you to get better, he believes in you, so hopefully you believe in yourself and have the courage to talk about what your feeling or thinking about, maybe even letting your loved ones know,

However, if it does get to a certain point, and you get worse and worse, simon heath will start to deteriorate again for he depends on you, he knows you both need help, will ask (PLEASED) with you to get help, he doesn’t know how to help you or himself for that matter, so either you get help like him, or you both rot together and die, with cuts on your wrists, and a bullet in you’re heads…..or the other outcome is that he will take a break form you to save his own health,