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Pure vanilla cookie and white lily cookie have been married for years now, and ever since that day they’ve been completely inseparable, everywhere she’d go, he would always stick by her side like glue, white lily cookie enjoyed the comforting aura her husband emitted everytime he’s around her, it made her feel all warm and fuzzy on the inside, as if all her worries and fears were swept aside even for the shortest of seconds, it made her feel good, and it made him feel even better seeing the love of his life smiling after all the pain she’s endured.

They were a very loving couple and they’ve never once in their life argued or disagreed on anything, whatever she’d like, he’d always stick with it, he’d always put her first, as she’s more than his wife in his eyes, he’s seen white lily cookie as his soulmate, his other half, the love of his life..his everything.
He truly and purely loved his wife, and she loved him back, but his feelings ran deeper.

Unfortunately, white lily cookie wasn’t always so open with her husband, yes she’d tell him everything about her life and what she loved, but she has a dark secret, she was always having trouble coming out of her shell. Her mental health was decaying ever since the dark flour war started, just the thoughts of her past self made her feel like her husband never deserved her.
she’d never tell her husband about it as if not to worry him, he was the sweetest and purest cookie she’d met, yet can’t share her thoughts as she doesn’t want to sadden his innocent soul, she didn’t want to see tears fill his beautiful innocent eyes.

Right now, white lily cookie excused herself to the restroom to reflect on herself for a while, she hasn’t seen her reflection in decades, though those around her would compare her looks to that of an ethereal goddess, she still refused to treat herself and know how she truly looked.

There she stood, her white hair was unbraided and long, her face covered in tear stains, her figure was very slender, the lily flowers in her hair were still fresh and emitted a very strong fragrance enough to fill the entire restroom with the smell.
white Lily cookie stood there, back against the mirror and her eyes closed, she needed this time alone to finally attempt to heal herself after a while. The room was filled with an unbearable silence, until she took a deep breath and spoke to herself.

“Where have I gone wrong..?”
She said with pain in her voice, she was tired and drained after all that’s occurred.

“I-I don’t know where to start again.. I’ve already fucked up everyone’s lives and I might’ve ruined mine even more.. I don’t deserve this love I’m receiving..”

She wasn’t happy at all. Despite the unbelievable amount of love she’d receive from her husband. She’d always feel like she’s decaying in a void where she’s drowning in her own sins.
She’s never felt so much guilt until now, thinking about all that’s happened to her.
She ended her short monologue with a few simple but deep words..

“Who am I anymore..?”

And with that.. she starts to slowly turn around trying to gather the courage to face the mirror behind her, but there was something wrong.. it’s not that she was insecure.. it’s that simple.
She can’t bring herself to see her true self.

White lily cookie has already been told and gaslit into thinking she was pure evil after the dark flour war, Dark enchantress cookie truly ruined her life.
She’s always believed if she were to look at herself again, she’d see dark enchantress cookie and she’d have no choice but to fall under her name and reputation, she was in denial that she’d see the real her in the mirror, but pure vanilla cookie always told her she was the most beautiful woman he’d ever known and saw, he’d always compare her to an angel, yet she rejected that opinion as she knew she was the furthest thing from an angel, at least in her eyes.

White lily cookie stood there and she was having an inner attack, not knowing what to do, what did she look like? Why is she doing this? Who is she? Why is she looking at herself? Those questions pushed her into taking the final step. Causing her to rotate herself all the way and eventually..

She suddenly gasped.

She found herself staring into the mirror.

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And there she was.

White lily cookie was now facing the mirror, she’d never seen her face nor her appearance in a decades, so this was a huge thing for her. This would’ve been the time she’d come to self acceptance and realize that her past is behind her now, at least that’s what she thought, she took a minute before she came to her senses and focus on the beautiful girl in front of her, which was her reflection.

For the very first time in a while, white lily cookie got to see herself, taking in every single detail, she first noticed how long and lustrous her white hair was, it reminded her of the moon for some reason, her hair was like a light that illuminated where ever she’d go. She brought her hand up to her hair, feeling its soft texture calmed her down a bit, pure vanilla cookie always loved to braid and stroke her hair as it was soft like a cream sheep’s wool, kind of like the ones from his childhood.

The next thing she sees is her facial features, the way her facial features harmonized perfectly with her face explained why those around her compared her to an angel, she truly looked like a porcelain doll, her skin was pale but it was very soft and delicate to the touch, she had very delicate and beautiful features that for a second refused to believe those details even belonged to her, she’s always been insecure of herself ever since she was a child, she was oblivious of the way others saw her, but nothing compared to how her beloved pure vanilla cookie saw her. But her face was covered in tear stains, which surprisingly made her look even more beautiful then she did, but nothing compared to her smiling face.

She continued to look at herself for while, admiring herself for a little bit and saying to herself in her usual quiet and soft voice:

“I really am beautiful..”

She smiled slightly as she let that thought sink in, attempting to comfort herself along with wiping the tears from her face.

She kept staring into her reflection that was staring back, she finally came to her senses and realized that everyone including pure vanilla cookie was right, she truly had the beauty of an angel, her features and looks say otherwise. However, despite the angelic looks she had, that wasn’t enough, she may be beautiful from the outside, but one question lingered in her mind.

“Am I beautiful? Even from the inside..?”

Yes, white lily cookie has always wanted to know the answer to that question, even pure vanilla cookie himself hasn’t heard that question since she won’t ask him that.

Suddenly, she looked back at the mirror, and as soon as she looked at it, she gasped in fear, she skin going pale and goosebumps immediately covering her skin, because what she saw, wasn’t her. It wasn’t like her at all.. She didn’t see her usual silky white hair, soft features and beautiful dress, she saw her. Dark enchantress cookie. It was as if she was staring into her own nightmares, she knew this would happen one day but she didn’t expect it to happen now. She stood there, frozen and scared out of her damn mind, she always knew this moment would come, as she stares into the eyes of the cake witch, she hears a deep and almost menacing voice. “Join me, white Lily cookie. You can not turn down the offer of the darkness” said the cake witch with a sadistic tone. White Lily cookie stood there and instead of taking the cake witches offer. She snapped. She fell to the floor and immediately burst into tears, wanting the nightmare to be over. She sits there, on the floor crying, even if the cake witches words was just in her head, it felt to real, so true.. so scary… Her weeps are soft and silent so that no one even her husband would hear her.. Until a knock at the door is heard.

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The knocks keep echoing through the walls. White Lily cookie is still on the ground, weeping, shaking, and begging for everything to go silent and peaceful again, it’s all she wants