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Hyuna was a party girl through and through. She knew people, she knew how to get around. From all of her years partying at the craziest frat parties, wildest college parties, and multiple hook-ups; it all got kind of bland after awhile. Close around the tail-end of her sophomore year, everything muddled out. Hyuna surrounded herself with like minded people who shared the same values as her: to live life and have fun. However, her studies got in the way amidst the heat of it all. She understood that school came first but she yearned for connection. Something she had dreamt of for years. Everyone liked "party-girl Hyuna" but they never truly reached out to know her. She liked being in the center of attention but felt so disconnected from her own peers. Her male peers would treat her as eye candy, making sure she'd always be on their radar, regardless of Hyuna's personal attraction to them. Girls would snare their eyes at the subtle mention of Hyuna. She herself didn't know why everything changed- she thought that they liked her. She wasn't sure why she was even doing this in the first place.

It is no secret that she drunkenly make-out with the nearest guy or chick. Whoever she could get her hands on was hers for the night. It was one after the other. It was just the way how things went, in her mind at least. Hyuna never went as far as to know their names, all it took was a few drinks and a lazy libido activated by alcohol and weed to kick start the engine. There were multiple occasions where she got cross-faded and slept with whomever she could find. This night wasn't particularly unique. Lost in dazy confusion, she got dressed, packed her things and quietly left her side of the stranger's bed. She peeped over her shoulder, noticing the wrinkles of the sheets that clung to her the rest of the night. The small glint in her eyes faded. She knew she had no one. She turned her back and walked away. On her way back to her dorm, a slight vibration tickled the side of hip.

"Hyuna."

"what do you wantttt, it's only 10 in the morning get off my ass"

"Hello? Where were you last night?? You were suppose to be in class like an hour ago."

"ugh.. just leave me be i dont fucking care hyun woo. at least be grateful im awake at this hour."

"Jesus Hyuna, where the hell are you? Do you even know where you are right now? Seriously, tell me."

"whatever the professor can suck my dick for all i care. just get back to class, i'll see you soon love yaaaa bye"

"Hyuna wait-" Beep.

Hyuna cast a glance at the long list of missed calls Hyun-Woo had left her the night before, asking her where she had been. She knew he cared but Hyuna didn't want to talk to him. He knew she had problems, he knew she didn't want to solve them, but he still cared to ask and check up on her.

I just don't understand why I can't just live my lifeee. can he like just leave me alone he knows he cant do anything about it. Her grogginess messed with her thought-process- she knew she didn't mean it but she was incredibly pissed someone even thought to ask her if she was okay. Hyun-woo knew not to ask her, every intervention led to nowhere so why ask?

She felt around her pockets for a cigarette and a lighter,

"Damnit, I left my lighter at that bum's dorm. Guess I won't be seeing that shit again."

Without knowing where she was, she scattered around campus grounds. Knowing her friends were probably asleep, in class, or somewhere in someone's bed, she knew it wasn't a good call to ask them about what had happened last night. God forbid she kept a track of what she did at all. On a whim, Hyuna checks her phone a second time to scroll through her notifications. While checking, she came to the guttural realization that no one else had bothered to check up on her.

Why am i so disgusting. nobody fucking cares about me except for my own brother. i bet they didnt even know i was there with them last night. what the fuck is wrong with me. Her head was still pounding from her terrible decisions. Whoever thought using beer as a chaser was a good idea? No sober person would dare to willingly drink beer, let alone use it as a chaser.

After what felt like an entirety, Hyuna stumbles on top of a nearby bench. Not too far away from her dorm. Perfect. The sun kissed her flushed cheeks and aggravated her headache. Her legs were spread out as if she was reserving a spot for her so-called friends. Her head tossed back, using her shoulder as a cushion.

"God. What a life," Hyuna chuckled to herself, "I wonder what would Hyun-woo would say if he saw me here… Maybe he'd scold me and lung me back to my dorm. I kinda feel bad for him now that I think about it but hey, it's his fault for trying." The pit in her stomach grew. She couldn't believe she was even saying these things about her own brother. She knew he cared but she didn't want help but she didn't know why.

"Ugh. I need a shower."

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"Welcome back Hyuna!!!!!!" Mizi's voice bounced off the thin walls of their shared enclosure. Her shrill voice pierced through Hyuna's hangover, causing it to ache worse.

"God Mizi could you be any louder."

"YUPP sure can!! Hey where were you last night? I bet you were at some guy's party again. Did you bring anything back for me???" Mizi's playful tone was just enough to tick Hyuna's patience down another peg. Instead of losing her shit, Hyuna kept her cool and responded, "You're too damn chipper this morning. Did Sua stop by last night while I was gone?"

"You sly fox! How'd you know??" Mizi playfully hissed back at her.

Hyuna glanced over at her roommates side of the dorm, Mizi was already a pretty messy girl but there was a trail of undergarments leading to the bathroom and back to her bed. A mixed assortment of panties and bras that were way too small to fit Hyuna's curvy body. "Uh.. lucky guess." Mizi broke the silence with a horrendous laugh which was followed by Hyuna bursting with laughter. The two were the most unserious-serious best friends on this entire campus.

Mizi and Hyuna were pretty good buddies back in high school. They were attached to the hip from the beginning of their freshman year. Nobody knew Mizi more than Hyuna did. Mizi was the only girl Hyuna could consider as a real friend. They'd been through thick and thin together- from sneaking out together, endless sleepovers, and on-and-off flings, these girls were inseparable.

"Look all I got is this unlit cig," Hyuna pulled the flimsy cigarette from out her pocket. Its end had bent a bit when she decided to sit down on the campus bench, "you got a spare lighter? I lost my boy toy's lighter earlier."

Mizi came prepared with a spare lighter in her drawer out of habit, this was routine. "Here!" Mizi pulled out a bright pink lighter, it looked fairly cheap but hey, whatever got the job done was more than enough for Hyuna. "Just don't lose this one this time. I have to take my hard earned two dollars from my paycheck to be your shitty lighter supplier." Mizi got up from her bed and passed the lighter over to Hyuna. As she was approaching Hyuna, she could smell a distinct smell emitting from Hyuna's clothes.

"Jesus girl you need a shower and a wash cycle NOW!" Hyuna perked her head up, "Do I really smell that bad?"

"Yes… now get in the shower!! Your stench is gonna scare Sua away the next time she comes over." Mizi forced Hyuna onto the toilet seat. Hyuna waited with the lighter in her hand as Mizi so kindly filled up the bathtub for her.

This sure is a pretty lighter. I can't lose it this time. She rubbed the exterior of her lighter for a sense of comfort. She knew Mizi cared for her but she didn't really feel like she could be open and honest to her about her own struggles with her addictions. Hyuna wasn't exactly a fake person but she definitely had her walls up, and Mizi respected that. She never pushed Hyuna to tell the full truth, it was an unspoken agreement between the two. Hyuna hung her head while she waited for the bathtub to fill. She could hear Mizi scrambling through her closet for any spare clothes for Hyuna to change into. It was the least she could do for her in that moment. Hyuna places the lighter next to the sink faucet.

"Alright, I got your clothes. I'll lay them here on the sink counter. Let me know if you need anything Hyuna. Love ya!" Mizi planted a small kiss on Hyuna's cheek before closing the bathroom door. Now it was just Hyuna, the lighter, and the bathtub. The bathtub had reached its full, Hyuna leaned over to turn the faucet all the way off before the water started spilling over. Hyuna got up from her seat and started to undress herself in front of the mirror, her greatest enemy. As each layer came off, a sense of dread hugged her skin. Is this really all I have to offer? Like not just physically but like.. myself as a whole? It was too damn early for Hyuna to be this depressed this early in the morning. It was only 11 am and she was already losing her shit. But, no matter the hour of the day, the season of the year, Hyuna never really felt comfortable with herself. Her body and soul felt like a mirage, a fantasy held together by whatever substance she could down. A heavy breath left Hyuna's body. She looked up from the mirror and just stared. Stared at the engravings underneath her eyes. They were heavy and smudged with makeup from the night before.

"Take as longgg as you want Hyuna!! I got a surprise for you and I don't want you spoiling it!!" Hyuna chuckled at her friend's delightfully undisguised secret. Mizi always knew how to put a smile on her face. Hyuna respected that. "Mkayy Mizi,,, just dont jerk yourself off with your unconstrained excitement. I might take a minute or two."

Hyuna slowly dipped herself into the water, cautiously planting her body inside the warm water. The steam hit all the right places. Calming her nerves and senses. Muddying her depressive episode from her foresight. What she needed in the moment was rest and relaxation.

Hyuna tilt her head back against the acrylic edge at her nape. She closed her eyes, submerged in the warm blanket of misery and tranquility.

What if I just drowned right now.

Hyuna peered over the ledge responsible for containing all the water. A bright pink lighter reigned over her nice pile of clothes. Its bright pink exterior dirtied her clean clothes..

Mizi must've put it there…

It was taunting her. Soiling her clothes. Reminding her that no matter what she did, it'll never leave her.

One day, all they'll have left of me is my dead body floating in this very tub. everything that i touch instantly becomes dirty like that goddamn lighter. if i stepped out now, i wouldn't feel any cleaner than i did before. im disgusting and i will be forever.

Hyuna dipped her head into the water. One last cleanse before she became unclean again.

"Hyuna are you done? It's been almost an hour girl are you okay?"

"Oh shit sorry." Hyuna hurried out the bathtub and drained the water. She quickly wrapped a towel over her damp body and stepped out the bathroom. Mizi was sitting on her bed, beside her was a guitar.

"Hyuna!!! Happy early birthday!!" Mizi ran up to her best friend with the guitar in her hands, "Till was giving away his old guitars and I thought it would be the coolest birthday present for you. I know how long you've been wanting to learn how to play so I decided now would be the perfect time!" Mizi wrapped her arms around Hyuna's wet, cold body. She didn't care. She loved Hyuna no matter what. Hyuna's throat closed up, not knowing how to react. "Thanks..Mizi. I really appreciate it, you know me so well." They stood as they embraced one another.

"Hyuna?" Mizi asked.

"Uh..yeah, Mizi?" mumbled Hyuna.

"Did you actually wash yourself? You still kinda smell."

"Oh yeah, uh, I got caught up in my own thoughts .. I guess." Hyuna responded sheepishly.

Mizi pulled away and firmly grasped Hyuna's bare shoulders, "Want me to wash your hair for you? It's the least I could do for my birthday girl." Her smile gleamed throughout her whole body. Mizi was a radiant girl. She was Hyuna's ride or die. She always knew how to put a smile on that sad little face of Hyuna's.

"I love it when you wash my hair Mizi, I don't know how you do it. Compared to what I do it kinda turns out to be dogshit but you? Wow, you should open up a salon."

"Of course! Washing your hair is so fun, makes me feel like we're back at home. Washing away all the crazy junk you got stuck in your hair from when we snuck out together. It's just like the good old times."

"Hah! Remember the time I somehow had a melted gummy stuck in my hair while we were at that junkie's house? I remember when we told your mom that I "accidentally" fell asleep with a bag of gummy bears underneath me."

"Oh my god, I still don't understand how she believed us." They giggled on their way to the bathroom. Mizi meticulously washed and brushed through the brunette's long, natural hair. She knew in times like these, Hyuna needed her the most. Mizi was more than willing to drop anything to help her best friend out. It was apart of their agreement after all. A friend-ship riding on waves of silent promises.

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Luka had no idea what to expect. He hadn't really talked to anyone since he transferred here. He was the top of all of his classes, the star talent in the school's choir program, and had an extensive knowledge on most instruments. He was a pretty well rounded person. The people loved him. Most importantly, he was a child star. Everybody wanted to talk to him. God knows how that ended up for him.

He kept his head low at his new university, he was entering his junior year of college. The last thing Luka wanted was more attention. He was majoring in Music Education with a bright future ahead of him. He was an extremely talented singer, a wonderful performer, and was incredibly smart. He could've blindly chosen a major and probably pass with flying colors. However, Luka's heart was dead set on pursuing Music Education. The music industry is what kick started his journey after all.

When Luka was younger, he had entered a local talent competition. He blew the competition out the water with his adolescent and tender singing voice. He became a nation-wide hit. He was in multiple interviews, television shows, and even made broke into the film industry. Luka was a B-list celebrity at best. Above all of this, there was a much bigger issue he had to confront.

Luka wasn't always Luka. He was born a girl. He wasn't born as Luka. During his formative years, he had publicly announced his transition, at the time, he didn't know what he was getting himself into. It was, undoubtedly, the worst thing that could've happened to him in his entire life. You see, it wasn't entirely his choice to come out. Luka wanted to phase out of his "child star" era and live life as a normal adult. Unfortunately, he was robbed of his own agency. After revealing the shocking news to his parents, they immediately sought to make a quick buck out of it, hoping it is just a phase. In the hopes of curating this new "persona," his parents allowed him to get on testosterone and hormone blockers, under the condition that he'd still go by his deadname and continue with his line of work.

Look Amelie, we don't particularly agree with your lifestyle change, but it's really good that you were honest about this. We just aren't sure if you really mean it you know? Are you sure this isn't for a publicity stunt? You're not getting bored of your job are you…. of course we still love you. You're our daughter, till the end of time, okay Amelie?

Of course, with the promise of receiving aid, Amelie agreed to her parent's proposition. Amelie lived her life as "tomboy" until she moved out. With the money he saved up from his former glory and various side hustles, he was able to stay on testosterone. His former self, Amelie, had deceased many years ago, Luka was his own pallbearer. Carrying the weight of his own Frankenstein corpse, forever tainted by the legacy he left behind.

This university was a fresh new start for him. He kept his head low and made sure to keep his distance. Although, his star given talented made him a notable figure on campus, no one had a goddamn clue about this guy. Washed up child stars don't really see the light of day past the age of 17 which was good for Luka. He was tired of the occasional comment, "Hey weren't you that tomboy from xyz??" That question always left him in a tight spot: either quickly answer with a yes and pray no one will press him any further, or simply deny deny deny. Thankfully, in his first month, no one even bothered to approach him. He kept to himself as the world kept spinning.

It was the peak of twilight, the stars were out and the campus grounds were quiet. The currents blew against his pale skin, small goosebumps intermittently appeared across his body. Luka was returning from the library after a long self-induced study hall. He had always made sure to stay on top of his studies, despite the conditions. The copper leaves danced around his feet as he walked back to his place. Reminds me of when I used to dance like that.. He grinned at the vague memory of his short time in dance. Maybe I should pick dance back up again..

Luka found himself at a cold, unwelcoming bench, coupled with a tall street light. With nowhere else to go for the night, Luka decided to sit on it.

Buzz. Someone was texting him.

"yo Luka wya"

"I'm nearby the dorms, I'm sitting at a bench. I'll be back in a few."

"Is everything alright?"

"yeah dude i was just wondering if you wanted to go to a party"

"i heard that girl you've been stalking is gonna be there tonight lol"

"I'll be there."

Till was Luka's roommate, they used to be in the same music program growing up. Although they weren't close back then, Till had Luka's back. He showed him the ropes of manhood and college life. He knew that if he left Luka to his own devices, he'd end up sulking in their dorm until graduation. Till wanted Luka to savor the college life, even just a bit.

"I don't even know why I said yes. I don't even smoke, let alone drink." Luka groaned. He was embarrassed at how fast he folded for this random girl. He had been pining for her ever since he first got here. Luka pulled his phone back out to searched through every social media post imaginable that she had posted across her accounts.

"Hyuna.." His cheeks flushed with awe, "She's..so pretty." Luka's dragged his thumb to his mouth, gnawing on his fingernail as he scrolled through. He owned multiple accounts that all followed her accounts, since she had such a high follower count, it didn't matter how many burner accounts he made. He had every photo of her saved onto his camera roll. He was completely enamored with Hyuna. From her hair, body, and essence. No word could ever describe the intense thirst he had for her. Luka had his eyes on Hyuna. She was pretty popular around campus, she was the IT party girl after all. She knew everyone and everyone knew about her.

You'd have to tear him apart to keep him away from her. A wave of heat pulsed through his body, his breath was cut short. His heart raced alongside his obsession. Maybe if I see her tonight then she'll want to talk to me…Hyuna are you willing to spend time with me? I'm more than ready to do so but I apologize if I don't exactly live up to your expectations.. Luka took one last breath before getting up, I'll see you there my love. As he stood up, he noticed a small lighter hiding underneath his seat. It was a cheap-looking, neon green lighter, on the other side it said "Property of Hyuna." Luka's heart jumped, This was Hyuna's??? His face got red from excitement, This is Hyuna's lighter, meaning she's touched this and held this! He delightfully kissed the lighter and held it tight on his way back.

Momentarily, Luka pulled up at his dorm. Till was sharing a few drinks with Mizi, the both of them waiting for him to arrive.

"Hi Luka! I'm one of Till's friends, Mizi." Mizi got up to greet him, only to be met with an awkward side hug, "Um.. I heard you were interested in my friend Hyuna! She's a real star I tell you. One of the best girl friends in the entire world. She's my ride or die!!" A grin grew on his face. This was his chance to finally talk to Hyuna.

"Jesus Luka at least say hello back." Till snared.

"Oh yes, Hi..Mizi," Luka quickly shoved the lighter back into his pocket, "my name is Luka. I didn't know Till could ever be associated with someone so gorgeous. Someone might've thought you were younger. A sweet face like yours is a truly a delight to see." Luka snapped back into reality, pulling out his flamboyant persona. Luka's charisma was through the roof, he won the hearts of many, he was a child star after all. It a part came with the job description.

"Okay back off of Mizi. You're here for Hyuna and Hyuna only. She doesn't even want your gay ass" Till stood in between Luka and Mizi. Till could see through his facade but still couldn't get past Luka's fuckboy attitude. He's too damn good at this, fucking perv.

"I was only greeting this fine young lady, Till. God let loose a little, can't a lady such as her receive an innocent compliment nowadays?" Luka kissed Mizi's hand. Mizi giggled but quickly snatched it back.

"Ugh, whatever asshole. But before we leave, change out of that nerd shit. You'll stick out like a sore thumb."

"I think I look alright." (no he did not. the fit luka was rocking )

"Yeah Till's right, if you pull up then you're gonna kill the vibe. Hyuna might not even want to talk to you if you're dressed to go to the annual virgin contest." Mizi couldn't contain her laughter. She was dying on the ground, giggling at her own joke.

"Okay Mizi it wasn't that funny. Get up and close your eyes, Luka's gotta change out of his Super Weenie Hut Jr. fit." Till lost the fight against his cool guy persona, he was just as much as a jester as Mizi. Luka quickly changed into something more casual as the pair were too busy flaming Luka's wardrobe.

"We can go now." The pair turned around and nodded in agreement. They couldn't have some loser ruin their night out.

"Yay!! Let's go now. I think Hyuna is already there, but most importantly, Sua is definitely already there."

Luka glanced over at Till in confusion. Till weighed in to fill in the missing puzzle pieces, "Sua is Mizi's play thing."

"God Till you make me sound like a slut!! Me and Sua are literally almost a couple."

"You keep saying that but I don't hear anything about you and Sua actually being girlfriends." The word girlfriend rang through Luka's head. Girlfriend… Luka silently walked with Mizi and Till as they both continued the conversation. Luka was more than ready to see Hyuna. Luka parted his lips and put his cold fingers to his lips, Hyuna..

"Anyway we're here," The trio stood behind a door. Music blared through the thin walls. Till glanced over at Luka, "Luka stop sucking on your fingers. How old are you."

"W-what.. I wasn't sucking my fingers."

"Then stop whatever you're doing. You're gonna scare Hyuna awayyy." Till said sarcastically

"No stop don't even manifest that!"

Mizi was already inside the dorm, waiting on the other side. The boys stepped inside and immediately got hit with a wave of smoke and alcohol.

"Till, you know I don't drink.."

"It's fine Luka. Just let loose a little, you don't need to be so uptight with yourself. A billion years of testosterone isn't gonna undo itself within a few drinks." Till reassured him, Till was incredibly talented at reading his friends.

Mizi was already gone. If they both had to guess, she was already undressing Sua and tonguing her down. So now it just left the two of them. Till hung around his friends while Luka idly watched and listened to their conversation. Luka was kind of Till's lost puppy. Although Luka definitely had the skills to carry himself through a conversation, a sense of dread crawled over him every time he even thought about striking up a conversation.

They'll know who I am. Everyone knows who I was here. Hyuna probably thinks I'm disgusting for even coming out here. I'll just make a fool of myself. No one wants to talk to a Frankenstein of a boy. Luka was scared to make conversation, he was scared someone would immediately find out who he was. He couldn't make the same mistakes again. Not the same ones that drove him out of his previous university. The only thing keeping him sane was the possibility that he'll be able to see Hyuna in person for the first time.

After some time had past, there were still no signs of Hyuna anywhere. Where is she.. I don't know where to even look. I don't know anyone besides Till and Mitzi or whatever her name is. Where is Hyuna. His impatience was bleeding into his demeanor. He visibly got antsy. Till noticed his shift in his demeanor, he knew he needed to do something before Luka broke.

"Yo Luka, could you hand me a drink? I'm almost out of mine," asked Till, "The cooler should be somewhere around here."

"Okay." Luka looked around the flat trying to find a cooler. He had been here for almost an hour and he still couldn't find her. Albeit, lurking around Till and his friends wasn't doing him any good but, how was he suppose to approach people? Luka marched past all the drunken college students. He had no clue how they even managed to muster up the courage to obtain fakes. Luka was basically a clean slate, he's never smoked and hardly ever drank. He didn't want to taint his body with all of that mess, he is a singer after all. He knows better to not mess up his body like that. After 5 minutes of searching, he had to surrender and ask someone where the damn cooler was. He walked up to a random girl sitting on a couch, she looked mildly sober.

"Uh.. do you know where the cooler is?"

"Huh?" She was clearly wasted. Luka just stood there, expecting her to suddenly remember what he had asked, "wait you said something about the cooler??? I think it's over there.." She pointed to the corner facing Luka's back. He turned around to see a bright red cooler hiding in the dark corner of the dorm. The lights were obscured so it was already difficult trying to navigate without bumping into something or someone. Luka gave his thanks and cautiously walked over to the cooler. He kept his steady gaze at the floor, as he approached the cooler, he saw a tall figure peep in his peripheral vision. She was rummaging through the ice looking for something to drink.

"Excuse me," Luka said politely, he crouched down to the coolers level.

"Huh, oh shit sorry pretty boy," Luka looked up at the sudden compliment. Oh my god… The tall figure has the same luscious hair as Hyuna's. The same facial features. The same complexion, everything. Was this really Hyuna?

"Were you looking for something? All this cooler has is nasty ass Modelos and sissy ass seltzers."

"I..uh," Luka didn't know what to say. The woman of his dreams was crouching right next to him and all he could do was make a fool of himself.

The tall figure stood up, "Wait, are you new here? I haven't seen you around.." She did a full body scan of Luka, analyzed his clothes, hair, glasses. "Yeah you are new. What's your name?"

Luka just stood there, completely dumbfounded. Was it really really her? Or were the lights too dim to tell. He couldn't tell, not even after the countless hours he spent studying her every feature. He couldn't even check for her prosthetic leg as she had a pair of flared boot-cut jeans on. Her jeans hugged her body in ways only a real man could love.

"Are you okay?"

"Oh! Uh, yeah sorry I was thinking about something," Luka nervously fiddled with his fingers, "My name is Luka and I'm a junior, I just transferred here from some other school."

"Nice to meet you Luka, my name is Hyuna. I'm also a junior. I figure you're here by yourself lol." Hyuna held her hand out waiting for Luka to return the gesture.

Pretty Boy?? Hyuna called me a Pretty Boy. Luka shook her hand, that small gesture struck him to his core. Luka was quick to falter to Hyuna's words. One compliment was enough to leave him feeling buzzed for the rest of the night. As the two shook hands, he could feel a wet spot in his boxers grow. Oh my fucking god you have to be kidding me.

"I'm actually here with someone, my friend named Till." Luka was too out of it to even think straight, let alone acting charming.

"Oh wait, I think I know that guy!! My best friend actually gave me one of his old guitars for my birthday. It's a little bit up but that's okay. I've always wanted to learn how to play!" Hyuna pulled out her phone to show the picture of her new guitar, "Since you know Till, I'm guessing you know Mizi." Luka was hardly paying attention to her new guitar. This is the first time he's actually talking with his girl. He couldn't help but to let his eyes wander around, landing directly on her chest. Luka was completely checked out of the conversation.

"Yeah..that's cool."

"Are you holding anybody up? If not, we can go somewhere a bit quieter, you look a bit lost- like a lost puppy." Hyuna's offer made Luka's brain short circuit. Luka was a fairly charismatic guy, usually he'd be the one swooning his eye candy but he was never on the recipient end. And god, for his first time, he sure was pretty damn lucky to have the girl of his dreams smooth talk him. Luka nodded and was hauled across the dorm into a random room by Hyuna. She had a pretty tough grip but Luka didn't mind. He and his little friend were happy to see Hyuna.

Hyuna was lucky enough to spot an unoccupied room. A rare sight to see at a college party. She locked the door behind her while Luka stared at her. She was so fucking beautiful. Luka couldn't even begin to comprehend how he was granted the privilege to talk to Hyuna.

Buzz. Luka hurriedly pulled out his phone. Till was bothering him once more.

"luka where tf r u"

"are you with hyuna"

"im guessing you are"

"its fine ill leave you be, go bone the girl of your dreams lmaoo ill be out with my buddies"

He left Till on read then decided to leave his home on 'Do Not Disturb' for the rest of the night.

Hyuna popped the age old question, "You ever smoked Luka?" Luka sheepishly replied with a simple no.

"Hah, figured. You don't look like the type to smoke or drink. You're kind of a dork." Hyuna slightly chuckled to herself. She pulled out her bright pink lighter and a joint from her jacket. She placed the jacket on top of a chair and propped the window open. On the other side of the campus, music blast throughout the place. Guess there were hundreds of other lucky guys getting it on with their crush too. The cool air breezed through the room. Hyuna's black halter top accentuated her chest. She wasn't wearing a bra, she didn't need to. Her breasts were perfect, they peeked through her plunging v-neckline. Luka couldn't keep himself together. He wanted to hold them so so bad. A bit of drool spilled from his mouth as he imagining his face in between them. The wet spot between his legs grew as he continued with his dirty fantasies. Amidst Luka's fantasy, Hyuna was rolling a joint for Luka. She had quietly assembled one at a clean desk. Luka patiently waited, fiddling with the lighter in his pocket.

Suddenly, he remembered that the lighter he was fidgeting with wasn't his, "Oh wait- I found your lighter earlier. I found it on the ground outside the bench, I'm kind of surprised I found it and was able to to find its rightful, beautiful owner."

Luka's compliment left a subtle tint on Hyuna's cheeks, "You're too kind to me Luka. I thought I lost it at this weird guy's dorm but I already got another one. My best friend Mizi gifted a spare to me."

"Oh alright, thanks." The room fell quiet again. His heart dropped at the small mention of another guy, he felt inadequate to him. What if she goes back to him.. if she does then I'll have to kill that guy. No one knows Hyuna unlike I do. She only needs me. Luka was so caught up in his own sick fantasies that he didn't hear Hyuna talking to him.

"Hey! I made one for you." Hyuna broke the silence and turned around to hand the joint over to Luka.

"Ah sorry, I wasn't paying attention," Luka pardoned himself, he made eye contact with the joint, not realizing that she made one for him, "I don't want to smoke tonight. I'm apart of the choir so I don't want to mess up my lungs you know.." Midway through his sentence, he realized how much of a pussy he sounded like.

Hyuna broke into laughter, "Are you kidding me?? Holy shit, that only happens if you become a chronic smoker. Don't be paranoid, just take a small hit. Trust me, I'll take care of you if anything happens. I'm not new to this."

"How are you going to take care of me if you're also gonna get high?"

"Just trust me. I've been doing this for way longer than most people should. You haven't seen me at my worst." Hyuna, with the joint in her other hand, used her right hand to slightly open Luka's mouth to place the joint in his mouth. Then pulled the bright pink lighter from her side pocket to ignite the joint for him.

Hyuna is so sexy.

"There. When you inhale, keep the smoke in your mouth for like 5 seconds? I don't know I just let it out when I feel like it. But do not fully inhale it, if you do that then you'll just start coughing like crazy. After the first puff, then you can inhale the smoke, got that pretty boy?"

She said the thing again, pretty boy.

Luka followed her instructions, after the first hit, he started coughing but he got himself under control before it threw into a coughing fit. She grinned at him then got up from her seat to assemble another joint for herself.

"Damn, I'm out of paper. I'm not going back out there to ask for some. Some guy was lurking around trynna look for me," Luka felt slightly embarrassed after hearing that, pretending he wasn't basically doing the same thing for the past few months, "but hey, I'm glad I met you. Gave me an excuse to get away from that perv."

"It's been a pleasure talking to you, gorgeous."

"Oh stop it," she said while trying to hide her smile, "anyway, looks we're gonna have to share one. Like I said, I have the actual weed just no damn paper."

Luka blushed, "Sharing?" It was like he was some little school-girl talking to Hyuna. She had this edge that smoothed his senses. He lost all his cool trying to talk to her.

"Yeah! It's two puffs per person usually so…" She gestured her hand as a subtle request for him to return the joint. Luka carefully placed the joint in between her fingers. After two hits, Hyuna holds onto the joint. "You feeling anything yet?"

Luka couldn't tell if he was just horny or high or both but he mumbled out a small yes. He could feel his nerves washing away. He didn't have to worry about feeling like a man for her. Hyuna seemed like she didn't care. Calling him pretty boy was more than enough to send him over the edge.

Hyuna knew how to play with guy's buttons, she knew what to say and do to make them absolutely feral for her. It was apart of her weekly ritual. Go out, meet a man, sleep with them, rinse and repeat. She knew this wasn't good for her but she persisted for the sake of routine. This rinse and repeat method was all she knew. In reality, Hyuna had only dated 2 people in the past. One girl and one boy, both relationships ended terribly. Hyun-woo had to be the one to bare the countless nights she spent crying, agonizing in pain from the heart aching breakups. Hyun-woo and Mizi were her only comforts but she knew she needed someone else. She kept this routine up because she felt like she was missing something. She turned to hook-ups to find the answer.

Growing up, Hyuna never truly felt like she belonged with anyone. Hyuna was in her own little world while everyone had locked her out of theirs. Although she's an incredibly flirty and charismatic character, all she ever wanted was someone by her side. She just wanted someone. Unfortunately, this desire lead her down the wrong path during as a teenager. Her first boyfriend was incredibly horrible to her. He treated her like an object. She wasn't Hyuna, just someone's slutty toy. Hyuna's agency gradually degraded the longer she stayed with him. It wasn't until Hyun-woo stepped in and beat the shit out of that asshole. To this day, Hyuna ponders how she would've turned out if she had stayed with him.

A year later, she got into her second relationship. It was with a girl who had led her on, she fully believed that girl loved her. Hyuna fully believed that they would last for forever. She believed the relationship was built off of something real, she believed there was a firm foundation. Alas, their relation-ship was a broken carrack drowning in the sea of lies. Close to their one-year anniversary, she broke the news to Hyuna that she was straight.

Hyuna felt truly unlovable. Totally and utterly unlovable. Any form of a romantic relationship was seen unobtainable. There was a void in her heart, she was betrayed, used, and lied to. Was it so wrong of her to chase that high?

Hyuna knew that she was going to break his heart, but he was just too cute to ignore. As Hyuna took her third puff, regret bloomed in the pit of her stomach. I'm terrible. He shouldn't even be here right now. Why did i make him do thisssss im so sorry luka just leave im sorry

But regardless of how she felt, she felt obligated to at least make Luka feel safe during his first time.

"So,, you said you were in the choir right? Do you know anything else about music?"

Luka half-conscious replied with, "Yeah, im like superrr talented. im majoring in music education. i can teach you how to play the guitar. im really good with my fingers" He let out a small giggle, he felt his eyes straining but the pain didn't stop him from pouring all his attention into Hyuna. so beautiful…

"Cool!! You should come over to my dorm and teach me. Here I'll give you my number." All of a sudden, Luka's stomach dropped. He could not let Hyuna see what was on his phone by any means. Shit

Luka nervously laughed, "Ahah I could just give you mine, I don't know where my phone is hah." What a stupid lie. His phone was right in between his legs. Lucky enough, Hyuna didn't seem to notice. She passed him her phone. Luka punched the digits into her cell and handed it back to her.

Hyuna leaned in closer. Her sultry voice made her words sound rich and smooth, "You do anything else handsome?"

Luka was beyond gone at this point, the wet spot had bled through his pants. The joint had made him regain all the confidence he had lost ever since he stepped into the flat.

Luka planted his hand on top of Hyuna's thigh and leaned in closer, "Nothing else I don't think. I'm not one to talk about myself but I would love it if you told me about yourself." Luka pushed back Hyuna's hair behind her ear. His glasses slid down his nose bridge, revealing the lustful glint in his eyes. Her eyes met with his, Hyuna was enraptured.

Hyuna brought her hand up to his cheek and whispered, "Well for one, I'm a great kisser." She closed the space between them and kissed him. She lingered on his lips, massaging them with hers. She pulled away, "Are you gonna smoke some more handsome?"

"No ma'am."

"You're so formal." Hyuna chuckled and leaned in for another kiss. This kiss was much deeper than the previous one. Hyuna had met her match, Luka was actually returning the energy. His hand crept up her thigh, squeezing the soft muscle hiding underneath her jeans. Hyuna let out a soft moan. Their tongues swirled around each other's mouths. Hyuna was delicious. Luka bit her lips. Hyuna winced. Impulsively, he grabbed Hyuna's chest and began massaging it. Her breasts were too big for his hand, he clearly needed both. A wave of heat hummed throughout her legs and ran straight to her core. She hauled her hand over to the back of his neck and gently pulled his hair to return the favor. He whimpered at the sensation. At this point, Luka was drenched. The friction of his jeans was not helping him whatsoever. Luka so badly wanted to pull her hand down to his crotch but he was worried he'd be moving too fast. Despite his fear, this was nirvana.

Hyuna pulled away one final time- this time, her breath heavy and face hot. She took final drag of the joint. She blew a few Os in his face, Luka was easily impressed. Shes so talented I wonder if she could teach me how to do that..

Hyuna gleefully smiled at him. However, she realized that she needed to put out the joint soon, Luka wasn't gonna smoke any longer and it was becoming a nuisance trying to micromanage. Hyuna wasn't one to be afraid to take risks, she knew how to read the room.

She poked the hot end of the joint onto Luka's neck. Rubbing the heat straight onto his neck.

"Ahh.." Luka winced in pain.

"Need me to stop?" Hyuna's seductive nature had Luka entranced. He was willing to let her do anything to him. No matter how bad it hurt, as long it was just her and only her.

"N-no keep.. going please. Do whatever you want to me, I don't care"

"So cordial and obedient. You'd make for a good toy." Hyuna let the joint linger on his neck for a few seconds longer before she pulled it away. The target had left a small red spot, a perfect spot for her lips. Hyuna left three more burn marks around his neck and collarbone before she began to eat him alive.

Luka's moans got louder each burn mark. It was pure bliss. The joint had finally died down after the third and final time. It was only logical to throw it out the window, she didn’t want to cause a potential fire hazard in someone’s room. Hyuna pressed Luka onto the mattress, she was on top of him, her knee between his legs and her mouth on his burns. Hyuna sucked and bit the targets scattered over his milky skin. Her tongue circled the burn, a move that would make Luka’s voice tremble. He didn’t know what to do with his hands, it wasn’t that he was inexperienced but usually he’d be the on top. He definitely knew how to use his hands but they weren’t doing anything. Luka felt helpless underneath her. Hyuna’s teeth etched circumference of the marks. She bit with force and sucked with care.

At this point, Hyuna could already tell that Luka was missing his counterparts, but he definitely wasn’t missing the libido. Her knee pressed against the wet spot between his legs, she was slowly grinding her knee against his crotch to get him to whine even more. Luka was afraid of what she would stop, assuming she’d freak out but she didn't. Instead, she continued to play with her toy.

"You like that baby?"

“Y-yes ah.. Please Hyuna, don’t stop.. I-Ahh.. please just ruin me. I’m sorry for wasting your time.” He was basically squirming at this point. He knew she had him under her control and he enjoyed every damn second of it. He pulled his zipper down and shimmed out of his pants a bit. Exposing his boxers to her, the dark red spot had grown exponentially. Luka couldn’t contain himself anymore. Hyuna tore away from his plump, swollen skin. She took a second to stare at her artistry. Luka's face was red, his lips quivered- he wanted more. His amber puppy eyes pleaded for Hyuna's attention and devotion. He craved her. He was lucky to even talk to her, the fact he is currently underneath his Goddess only made him weaker. She scanned Luka up and down, noticing the damp spot he had harbored.

"You're not wasting anybody's time baby. In fact, you made my job easier." Hyuna sensually massaged his clit, the circular motion made Luka's whole body twitch. Before continuing, Hyuna pulled his pants off his sweaty body and tore her pants off as well. Revealing only the sexiest lace thong Luka ever bore witness to. He so badly wanted to rip them off with his teeth. His core was beyond swollen, no grand achievement could ever replace her, his muse. Hyuna's silver prosthetic reflected off the warm lighting in the room, the golden fluorescent light couldn't compare to Luka's beautiful amber eyes. Hyuna could stare at him forever. Her soft hand cupped his left cheek, transferring her body heat over to his. Out of habit, she rubbed her thumb back and forth, Luka moaned into her hand. She didn't need to do anything at all to keep Luka under his control

She knew he wouldn't last the longer she teased him- she decided that now was the time to strike. All Luka could do was to bow down against his will. Luka was her pet, her toy. Hyuna tugged his boxers down to his knees, his clit was hiding behind a curly blonde slick bush. Pre-cum glistened through the tangles of his pubic hair. Luka had no idea what she was going to do but he wasn't sure what wanted more: to be eaten out or wrecked from the inside. Whatever she did to him, he'd listen and obey.