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ive been sick since thursay and its been like a week since my sickness keeps on bouncing out and into my life again i think this is the october canon event they were talking about in tiktok,,,
my head feels like it could communicate in colours dude im going insane not to mention my throat coughing every single bit of my sanity and it physically hurts to laugh which sucks since ive built my fyp being funny🥀🥀 my guy im not even safe from EATING since i have this stupidass "mouth ulcer" thing on my gums,,, its not like its my first time having this its just the only one ive had in my life that didnt disappear in a matter of the 3 days it appeared in my mouth
in the subject of eating, bro eating tonight was hell because i was quite literally fighting the devil trying to eat the fried chicken my grandma made for dinner✌🥀 ong the universe against my ass
deadass i didnt attend school the whole week except for wednesday (exclude friday ik its like tomorow but my mom told me dead in the eyes that im not attending so like ok mom) not to mention in that said wednesday i attended the 3rd = LAST DAY OF EXAMS and my smartass fuckass excuse of a school decided it was a beautiful idea to put our intrams right after the exams and i didnt get to attend it and im scared shitless for our next schoolday thank god its sem break or something and we're coming back on nov4 but idk what the hell im gonna do since like dude i have to take special exams soon and i doubt that theyre gonna wait until said november 4 for our special EXAMS
ong dont get me STARTEDDDDD on my new school,, actually idk if its "new" or im just a returnie since i barely remember anything from this fuckass school but the fact i recall 2nd grader me wanting to burn the PRIMARY building down is insane🥹🙏 i really knew ball bro school sucked so fucking bad a goddamn 7y/o wanted to burn that shit downn🙏
as much i hate this fuckass school that makes me wanna killmyself atleast i like have some acquaintances around me preventing me to do so like ig it iisnt like THAT bad,,, no it is that bad im trying to gaslight myself here leavemealone
idk if theyre actually my friends or acquaintances atp bro in my circle of acquaintances theres this one fucking boy that i wish hope and pray for its downfall everyday who keeps RAIGBATING MY ASS AND I FALL FOR IT EVERY FUCKING TIMW bro i fucking hate its fucking guts so much i hope it killsitself while his mom watchesoh my GKDDDSDD you dont understand my hatred for it deadass in our gc i fear if it gets leaked i mighghhht get sent into a mental hospital and get expelled in the prosses,,, mind you ive like unmaturally AND blindly sent it death threats wWITHHH witnesses(the others in that said circle of acquaintances) i swear to god i might cry next time i hear its fucking voice or its just the time of the month thats making me feel like this i dont know its while entire existence pisses me off fuck you dude
anyways
fuck you spotify and your fuckass ads let me listen to msi in peace you faggot guys i have the pass dontworry #womankisserloveyouboos
i love you ao3 and your stupidass fanfics but PLEASEEE have my preferred tops and botoms im sick and tired of seeing the perfect tags then reading my prefers being the OPPOSITE anyways goodnights im going to bed my phone is dying may the ao3 curse never get me since this isnt a fic now aint it