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I Wanna Be Yours
Based on the song by Arctic Monkeys
Years. It has been years since Sam and Colby have been friends. They have been each other’s number one, ride or die, for so long, they aren’t sure what life could ever be like without the other. Truth be told, they didn’t care to dwell on those thoughts either.
Sam just wanted Colby by his side forever, no matter what. He didn’t care what happened to him, as long as he had Colby there to help him through he’d be ok. He lived and breathed their little motto: “Sam and Colby vs. The World”, and he intended to keep that motto running. Sam’s feelings ran deeper than friendship, deeper than the so-called “brotherhood” they shared. Sam needed Colby in any way a person could need someone else. Colby was his happiness, his lifeline, his confidant, his everything; he only hoped he could be that for Colby too.
Colby had so many friends, so, so many, that Sam almost couldn’t keep up; almost. Sam kept track of everything, so when Colby talked about who he hung out with, he would know and remember. That’s why when Brennen and Colby hung out a lot, Sam always knew, and he would always wait for Colby to get home, no matter how late, just in case Colby needed him. Sam wanted to be Colby’s number one, he wanted the reassurance of being his number one.
As time went on, Colby started to get closer to his other friends, which is totally fine, if you were to ask Sam. In fact, it’s great Colby hangs out with his friends! It’s great Colby goes to Brennen with things, like pranking the house, or when an issue arises. It’s fantastic, and Sam isn’t jealous at all. Nope.
“Hey, bro, you ok?” Colby asked Sam, who had zoned out when Colby told him he was going to Brennen’s to film a few different videos.
“Hm? Yeah, why?” Sam responded, suddenly being brought back to the real world.
“I was asking if you wanted to be in one of the videos too.”
“Oh shit, yeah sorry. That sounds good. What video do you want me there for?”
“Bestfriend vs. Bestfriend Challenge.”
Something about that stung. It cut Sam through to the bone. His heart stopped. He felt sick. Best friend him, and best friend Brennen? That hurt. Colby was his only best friend, why wasn’t he Colby’s only best friend?
“Sure sounds good. When are you planning on filming that one?” Sam asked, trying so hard to not let his inner turmoil show.
“Uhhh, I think tomorrow is when Brennen can come over, but I’ll ask him later when I see him.”
“Alright sounds good.”
“Cool. I’ll see you later.” Colby says, as he starts to walk to the front door.
“See you.” Sam replies.
Sam was not about to lose whatever challenge Colby had planned. It was most likely a ‘who knows me better’ type of video, so Sam started doing what every completely sane, jealous friend would do, and just started trying to remember every random fact about Colby that he could. He wrote each thing down in his phone, and kept reading over each thing he could think of. All he knew was that he would prove to Colby who his real best friend was.
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The day of filming the video, all Sam could think of was Colby. His brain was consumed by Colby. All the random facts he could think of, all their shared memories since high school, helping each other gain confidence, starting social media, moving out to LA, moving into the house they’re in now, everything. He had spent the entire night before preparing to beat Brennen in this video, and his brain was entirely consumed by Colby. Sam, sometime in the past 13 hours he had been thinking about nothing but Colby, had come to a realization; he wasn’t just jealous out of wanting to be Colby’s number one best friend, but he wanted more with Colby. He had feelings for Colby. Which is why when Colby told Brennen to move over at the start of their filming, he felt his face get hot and a sense of pride shoot through him. Sam decided to be bold.
“What’s up guys, it’s Sam and Colby.” Colby started.
“Today, we are with Mr. Brennen Taylor, playing boyfriend vs. best friend.” ever so slightly gesturing to himself when he said ‘boyfriend’.
“Which one’s the boyfriend, which one’s the best friend?” Brennen had the audacity to ask.
“I guess we’ll find out when this video’s over.” Sam replied, looking at Colby with one eyebrow raised.
“I’m cool with either way here, so it’s a win-win situation for me. You too, right?” Brennen then joked, looking over at Sam, laughing. At least Sam hoped he was joking.
“Yeah.” Sam agreed, smiling and playing along with this "joke".
“Hell yeah. Then may the best man win.” Brennen said, reaching over to give Sam a fist bump, which Sam reciprocated.
“Okayyyyy!” Colby said. “It’s basically # Solby, vs. #Brolby. Who’s the better duo?”
That sentence made Sam more determined to prove to no one but Colby that he and Sam were the better duo. Sam was going to make Colby see that he was meant for Colby if it was the last thing he’d do.
That’s exactly what he did too. Sam won, and Brenen had to eat dog treats as a “punishment” for losing. ‘Fits him right’ Sam thought, although he wanted to say it out loud. As they were finishing up filming, Brennen made another stupid comment in Sam’s “not so humble” opinion.
“But before you guys end this video, I’m just curious, so, does this mean you’re the best friend,” he said pointing at Sam, “and I’m the boyfriend?” he continued, then pointing at himself. “Or, or what?”
Sam couldn’t control the glare he sent Brennen’s way. Sam had won. He should get to be the one for Colby. He had proved he loved Colby more.
“Let’s let the viewers decide.” Brennen finished with.
Luckily for Sam, Colby agreed to that too. They ended the video shortly after that, and when it was done, Sam went straight to his room, and “accidentally” shut the door a little bit too hard. It was about 30 minutes later when he heard a knock on his door.
“Come in.” Sam said, a little bit too blunt.
“Hey, thanks for filming with us.” Colby said.
“Yeah no problem. We needed a video for the Sam and Colby channel anyway.” He replied with a small laugh.
“Yeah.” Colby said, a hint of apprehension in his voice. “Um, are you ok? You just seemed kind of, I don’t know, off, when Brennen was here?”
“Yeah, Colby, I’m ok. I’m tired.”
“Yeah, ok. But, it seemed different, than just your normal tired. Seriously dude, if there’s something going on, if he had somehow done or said anything to upset you, you can talk to me man, I’m here for you.” Colby insisted, and to Sam, it seemed like genuine concern. He so desperately wanted to tell Colby his new found feelings, he wanted the reciprocation of those feelings, but he was scared to.
Sam felt that he couldn’t tell Colby those feelings. He thought back again to everything they’ve been through together, and their friendship, something he really didn’t want to lose. He couldn’t lose their friendship. To him, Colby was his everything. He wanted to be Colby’s everything too, but he was scared. Sam didn’t realize that in his thoughts, he started crying. At least, not until Colby had pulled him into a hug. He was almost sobbing.
“Hey, hey, talk to me. What’s going on? What happened?” Colby sounded so concerned, which made Sam cry harder. He felt he was about to ruin everything because he couldn’t lie to Colby; he can’t lie to Colby.
“I just want to be yours.” Sam said as sure of himself as he could muster while he was crying.
“Sam, you’re my best friend, what are you talking about?”
“Colby, I want more than that. I’ve been thinking about everything we’ve done, everything we’ve been through together, and just, I can’t be without you Colby, I can’t.” Sam let it all out. He poured his heart out to Colby. He couldn’t keep that in anymore.
“I-” Colby started.
“I’m sorry. I shouldn’t have said anything. I just, I couldn’t keep it from you. I was going to try, but I can’t keep a secret from you, and one like this is harder to keep than I thought. I’m sorry, you can leave. I’ll be fine.” Sam continued, as he turned away from Colby, wrapping his arms around himself and looking at the ground.
“Sam. Look at me.” Colby said. His voice was steady and calm, and Sam had no choice but to do what he had said. “It’s ok. I know.”
“You know?”
Colby just nodded his head and took a step closer to Sam, holding his arms out and motioning for Sam to get a hug. Sam stepped into the hug Colby offered, fervently hoping this wasn’t the end, or a goodbye.
Sam, while still unsure about what was happening, felt Colby take a deep breath while still holding him.
“I want to be yours too.”
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