What I thought was a sip, was a thousand tears…But still they said drink deep…And the cups that they brought up to my lips…I realized I drank of myself.

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• Open my legs, lied down with death...This feeling leads the ache, the kick, the need by altanssnoopy

  Fandoms: The Poppy War Series - R. F. Kuang  

  • Mature
  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • F/M
  • Work in Progress

  04 Feb 2026

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  • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
  • Fang Runin/Yin Nezha
  • Chen Kitay & Fang Runin
  • Fang Runin & Sring Venka
  • Chen Kitay & Fang Runin & Sring Venka & Yin Nezha
  • Fang Runin & Yin Nezha
  • Fang Runin
  • Yin Nezha
  • Chen Kitay
  • Sring Venka
  • Yin Vaisra
  • Yin Saikhara
  • Yin Muzha
  • Petra Ignatius
  • Original Child Character(s)
  • Original Female Character(s)
  • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
  • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
  • Forced Marriage
  • Don't Like Don't Read
  • Forced Pregnancy
  • "forced" as in politically
  • Nezha never forces himself on Rin!!! Very important to note!
  • yall are going have to discard a lot of canon for this
  • no smut but it gets racy
  • I Wrote This While Listening to Florence + the Machine
  • no beta we die like altan
  • yin vaisra hate page
  • nezha really loves his wife and child
  • rin is certainly there
  • Family Dynamics
  • you know those videos of a cat trying to parent but it drops the kitty in the trash can on accident
  • yeah that's these two as parents
  • The Author Regrets Nothing
  • author doesn't know how she wants this to end so you're going to figure it out with me
  • I'm Bad At Tagging
  • i'm reading through manacled that's what i blame
  • kitay and venka are really excited to be an uncle and aunt
  • the yin family sucks
  • and so do the hesperians
  • but what's new?
  • English Is Not The Author's First Language
  • and i'm also orthodox so that influences how I write a bit
  • this is so delusional i am aware
  • chronic temple kisser yin nezha
  • burning god does not happen at least now how it does in cannon
  • rin is not a good mother but it’s understandable
  • does it count as a redemption arc if nezha is so insanely in love with his wife?

  Summary

  Rin had done a lot of stupid things in her life, many of which she wouldn't consider herself regretting, but there were two though. Two that she regretted so bad, she had a feeling she would take those regrets to her grave.

  1. Not destroying her uterus when given the chance.
  2. Choosing Yin Nezha as her anchor.

  Now here she sat a wife to the man who stabbed her, daughter in law to a man who betrayed her, a Hesperian lab rat, with no access to her God.

  The Hesperian's get bored with Nezha and her soon, and it's not like they could cut them up quite yet, they do need something new to though. What about a child? A true bridge between the Dragon and Phoenix. Something that should keep the Hesperian's entertained long enough.

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  rinezha, anchor and "forced" marriage and child AU.

  Series

  • Part 1 of What I thought was a sip, was a thousand tears…But still they said drink deep…And the cups that they brought up to my lips…I realized I drank of myself.

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  English

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