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Harry stared at the space around him.....everything was chaos......everything was damage...so many dead people ....so much dirt...It was all overwhelming . He was the chosen one , voldemort had wanted him .....and yet so many had died , all because of him....all because he existed . He didn't think he could take anymore ...... he didn't exactly have anything to live for ...Hermione was dating Ron , he loved her ...but he loved his best friend too ...there was nothing left for him to do ....Voldemort was dead , they had won ....and yet he felt empty . He pointed his wand at himself .
I was glad the war was over . We had done it ....Harry had done it , and yet , I hadn't seen him at all ....he had disappeared and it was worrying . Ron saw me and came over ...-Hey Hermie !! Lets meet for dinner tonight. He said that like nothing had happened, like , we hadn't just almost lost our best friend . That was the thing about him , he tended to play everything down , like it didn't actually matter .He kissed me ...and I let him . We're dating after all...and although I wanted him before we started dating , our relationship seems completely wrong ....I keep trying to convince myself that it will work out , that we would be good together . Everyone thought Ron and I would end up together ....but it doesn't feel right .
Ginny had always had feelings for Harry , ever since the first time she had seen him when she had been ten ...oh , he had been ever so polite and so caring , it made her cheeks go red which , to be honest , was quite embarrassing . But then , if she really , actually thought about it , her whole life seemed like one big embarrassment , except of course for the day he had kissed her . That kiss had just been so .....so.....she couldn't really describe it . It had been wonderful ....no , wonderful sounded lacking ...it was ecstatic . That was when she first experienced what it was like to be high , and she loved it .
He closed his eyes , his wand was now pointed at his chest . He didn't know what he was waiting for. He decided he should get on with it. He took in a deep breath , "AVA-" The door to Dumbledore's office burst open . Harry started . Hermione and Ginny entered . He laughed nervously - Hello ! How are you both ? Ginny blushed . God he didn't like that at all but he smiled kindly and she blushed more . She managed to regain her composure enough to stutter- Hermie invited us out to a double date and I said alright ...hope you don't mind . He didn't know what to say.....they had almost lost everything and Ginny wanted to go on a date ? He forced a smile onto his face - Sure . Ginny blushed again - I'll...I'll go tell Ron . U coming Hermie ? It was only then that Harry actually noticed her and he was glad Ginny's back was turned . Hermione smiled - Go along Ginny I'll be right behind , there's something I have to talk to Harry about , and then she looked straight into his eyes and he felt a shiver down his spine .
I had noticed , I had seen him put away that wand . What are you doing here Harry ? My voice comes out sharper than I intend it to . Harry looks nervous . I don't care . I wanted answers now . "I was just gonna put the Elder Wand back here.." Don't lie to me !!! I'm screaming . Don't you dare !! he hangs his head down . I feel like I'm going to start crying.. - Why Harry ? Why did you want to kill yourself ? After all we've done for you...and that's when he finally looked up at me . " Don't you see !!! I have nothing left here !! So many people dead .....Sirius , Fred , Dumbledore...all because I exist...." I've had enough . - What do you mean you have nothing left here ? You have Ron , you have me , you have Ginny ..
He sighed . " I don't have you Minie .....I don't I wish I did ...." Now I erupted , - What is wrong with you ?? I've been by your side for 7 years , I 've always been there for you , always been your friend ...He started shouting too " God Minie !!! How can you be so blind !! Do you not see ?? I love you !!" He was sobbing but I was in shock . He went on " I wish I didn't but I do ....and you're in love with Ron ....." But , he was wrong !! I didn't love Ron . I cupped his face between my palms and made him look into my eyes . His eyes were so beautiful - Harry , You're wrong ....I love you. And then we kissed .
Looking back at that day , I should probably have said no when Ron proposed to me that night .