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1. What if I don't want to remember? by KasyStarchild

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   28 Jan 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Sam Wilson
   • James "Bucky" Barnes & Sam Wilson & Helmut Zemo
   • James "Bucky" Barnes & Helmut Zemo
   • Ayo & James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Sam Wilson & Sarah Wilson
   • James "Bucky" Barnes & Sarah Wilson
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Sam Wilson (Marvel)
   • Helmut Zemo
   • Sharon Carter (mentioned)
   • Ayo (Marvel)
   • Dora Milaje
   • John Walker (mentioned)
   • karli morgenthau (mentioned)
   • Shuri (mentioned)
   • Sarah Wilson (Marvel)
   • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD
   • Alcohol Abuse
   • The Winter Soldier had it ruff
   • Bucky has flashbacks
   • Implied/Referenced Rape/Non-con
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • I swear there will be fluff later
   • I Wrote This Instead of Sleeping
   • No beta we die like Battlestar
   • Flashbacks
   • the falcon and the winter soldier spoilers
   • Madripoor (Marvel)
   • Sam being supportive
   • Bucky has caught feelings
   • Other Additional Tags to Be Added
   • I'm Bad At Summaries
   • Getting Together
   • Zemo ships it
   • Bucky is healing
   • Bisexual Bucky Barnes
   • Fluff
   • Boat Fixing
   • somewhat of a slow burn
   • Sarah Wilson is the best
   • slight canon divergance

   Summary

   While the trio is in Madripoor, Bucky experiences a flashback unlike he ever had before. Zemo seemingly is the only person who can help him answer all the questions he has. Bucky opens up to Sam and realises he has caught feelings, which leads him on a journey of finding happiness while processing his past.

   Note: I don't speak Russian. The Russian in this fic is from google translate, so it's most likely incorrect.

   Important Info: This fic is on hold until further notice. My laptop lost the entirety of Chapter 5 and idk when I feel like rewriting the whole thing again.
   Update 28.01.2026: I recovered the lost chapter!

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