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It's if Pride baru lol

I actually intended to create a Reinsuba album, but I also wanted to draw something else. Anyway, trying this site for the first time was really an unforgettable experience...
If you see anything strange, don't be surprised because I'm confused too. I very new here

I think Subaru was probably afraid of small furry animals for a while after being eatten by a rabbit, and Otto might have teased him about it (because Subaru always plays pranks on him)

This is an IF where Beatrice, a 17-year-old girl from the modern world, gets isekai’d into another world. Along with her comes an extraordinary talent for Yin magic. She accidentally helps Emilia and gets invited to stay at the mansion, where she eventually joins Emilia’s camp.
Beatrice is constantly bothered by a strange little boy whom Puck refers to as the "Great Spirit of the Forbidden Library." She doesn’t miss her old world much—her mother rarely spent time with her anyway. Despite coming from a wealthy family, Beatrice was always lonely and accustomed to isolation.
Before she was isekai’d, she had been dressing up, waiting for her mother to arrive at her birthday party. But in the end, that didn’t really matter—though she loved her mother, she had already grown too lonely. So lonely, in fact, that she no longer wished to form bonds with anyone.
However, as she spends more time in Emilia’s camp and goes through countless incidents together with everyone, Beatrice gradually starts to grow close to this Artificial Spirit without even realizing it.
Subaru has a strange personality. He’s too weak to be called a Great Spirit, yet his insight and strategic thinking are remarkably sharp. He holds a suspicious amount of knowledge from who-knows-where (we know it’s RBD, lol).
Despite his mystery, Subaru is just a silly, earnest boy. Beatrice doesn’t like how he keeps trying to get close to her—but in the end, the two make a contract. After Subaru asks her to be his contractor, he promises her that she’ll never be lonely again. He chooses her first, and he’ll always be someone she can trust.
And that made Beatrice happy—truly happy. She was glad that she met Subaru.

For Subaru, it wasn’t anything too complicated.
He was the Great Spirit of the Forbidden Library, but his personality was very different from Beatrice’s, and his actions were different as well.
Over the 400 years, Subaru didn’t dwell on “that person” as much as Beatrice did—because he had two mothers. One gave him a purpose. The other gave him power so he could protect himself, because she wanted him to live his life putting himself first.

Subaru had only one contractor before Beatrice, and he loved him deeply.
But because humans don’t live as long as a Great Spirit, Subaru eventually had to say goodbye to his first friend — and that left him feeling empty for a long time.

When he met Beatrice, he thought—she’s lonely too.
And he wanted to help take that sadness away from her.

Because for Subaru, his life only held meaning when he was able to give something to others.
And Beatrice’s happiness now–feels like his own.

(So yeah — in the end, I just wanted to draw a Shotamancer. lol)

Subaru was a knight in that world. Born into the Astrea family, but—surprise!—he wasn’t the chosen one. No sword talent, no divine blessing, just pure stubbornness and bad luck.
Wilhelm didn’t really blame him for his wife’s death. He was just disappointed that Subaru was... well, Subaru.
Heinkel, on the other hand, saw a bit too much of himself in the kid and tried—just a little—to be less of a disaster.

Subaru ended up contracting two spirits: one of fire, one of yin. They liked him way too much.
He also somehow made friends with Julius and Felix (don’t ask how; it just happened).
One day, he saved a dazed red-haired guy from some alley thugs. Casual. Then he ran into a silver-haired half-elf named Emilia and decided to help her find her missing insignia. Because that’s what knights do, right?

Enter Elsa.
Subaru wasn’t that weak… but he was just unlucky enough to meet her.
He died. Horribly.
And that’s how he found out about his little death-powered save-point cheat.
So he tried again.
And again.
And again.
Trying to save Emilia, Felt, Rom— anyone he could.
Eventually, he succeeded!
…Except it was the red-haired guy who actually beat Elsa.
Subaru collapsed onto the ground in pure emotional defeat.

Reinhard never expected that a casual night walk through a playground would get him isekai’d. But here we are.
He was utterly confused.
Then some alley thugs tried to mug him.
Reinhard wasn’t really the type to solve problems with violence (not that he couldn’t), but before he had to throw a single punch, a tired-looking black-haired man jumped in and saved him.
That tiny bit of swordsmanship Reinhard once learned? Never needed.
Despite being the one rescued, Reinhard found himself worrying more about the guy who helped him.
He looked seriously exhausted.
Maybe it was the dead-inside expression.
Maybe it was the way the thugs had called him a “knight in name only” or “a walking disappointment.”
Either way, Reinhard got roped into delivering a message for him... except he had no idea where the city guard even was. Before he could say anything, the guy was already gone.
So Reinhard followed him. Naturally.
And somehow ended up helping fight Elsa.
And somehow totally wrecked her.
And somehow knew exactly how to wield a sword like he was born with it. Yeah. Turns out Reinhard was that kind of overpowered isekai protagonist. Classic.

As for their relationship? Simple.
Subaru wanted to be Reinhard so badly it hurt.
And Reinhard admired Subaru to the point of obsession.

The next one I’m thinking of drawing is either Julius or Otto, but I’m leaning towards Julius—'cause that man still doesn’t have a single picture.

Next, I think I’ll write about strangers secretly living in Subaru’s house.

I imagined Satella living in Subaru’s attic. One day, Reinhard, Julius, and Felix came over for a group project. Felix, hearing some creepy noises, went upstairs and opened the attic—only to find Satella staring back at him.
Felix immediately grabbed his phone like, “Police, please!” while Julius tried his best to calmly explain to Subaru why, logically, they needed to call the authorities. Meanwhile, Reinhard just sat there, looking at the giant pile of Subaru dolls Satella had made… with eyes that clearly said: “Can I have one?” lol

I just noticed while doodling in the exam room, waiting for time to run out, ....that Anastasia and Subaru’s kid looks way too much like Julius. And honestly, that made me skip my drawing queue just to sketch it first because seeing them together is just too funny. lol

Seems like Otto’s got way too good of a sixth sense… damn it.

I don’t think I’ve ever mentioned this AU before — it takes place in a timeline where Subaru arrives earlier than in canon, becoming an inventor and even writing a few popular novels. He travels with Otto and ends up developing a good relationship with Anastasia (who is fascinated by his abilities). Although he helps Emilia and even likes her, he chooses to remain neutral. After the royal selection ends with Emilia’s victory, Subaru eventually marries Anastasia.

For many reasons, their marriage makes sense — Anastasia has always been the one subtly supporting and advising him through his struggles, helping him heal from the trauma of being crushed by a certain maid or tormented by a psychotic clown who acted like a final boss.

Lately, I’ve been really motivated — probably because hell is about to come for me again soon, and I’ll be losing my mind as usual. *Sigh...*

Honestly, I came up with this plot purely so I could draw these outfits. Too bad I could only get this far with Emilia’s illustration—my device crashed exactly ten times while I was working on it. The last time that happened (on the eleventh crash, when I was drawing fanart), the file literally exploded into fragments and vanished into thin air. So yeah, I’m not tempting fate again this time.
I’ve gotten busy again lately — I have to finish a comic before the end of the month, write a story for this week, draw fanart, and deal with a never-ending list of other things… The only time I can squeeze in for drawing is during my four hours of sleep, which I still have to split with my other hobbies. So don’t be surprised if I start replying a bit slower, my friend.

Of course, I’ve also planned some illustrations for the others — there’ll be Emilia & Pride, Reinhard & Pride, Otto & Pride, and Julius & Pride.
To be honest, I’m still debating whether or not to actually include Julius & Pride. I thought it might fit best as something that happens early in the timeline (when Pride’s still eager to see Emilia again), so Julius would still be alive at that point. Drawing that kind of formal outfit for him sounds pretty fun too. I might even make Subaru step on his foot on purpose or something like that.
But yeah, I probably won’t be completing the full collection anytime soon lol

Here are some small details I’ve been thinking about for the What IF versions of fem!Subaru

Pride IF
-Subaru’s Archbishop of Pride outfit was inspired by her first friend, combined with Emilia’s cloak, with Roswaal’s help.
-Subaru worships Emilia like her own messiah.
-Meili loves the Emilia doll that Subaru made, and she likes practicing braiding using Subaru’s hair. She’s happy and feels like they’re one family.
-Elsa often braids Subaru’s hair. Before starting their final plan, she thinks about asking Subaru to run away together with her — the three of them, somewhere very far away, because “Mother” is already dead. She’s begun to like this life, but in the end she doesn’t say it out loud, thinking that they’ve gone too far to turn back now.

Wrath IF
-Subaru prefers wearing men’s clothing rather than skirts, usually something plain — often all black.
-When going outside, Subaru often carries an umbrella. She’s too used to staying in the dark indoors, so sunlight feels almost blinding to her eyes.
-Subaru has pale skin and a very slender build.
-Cecilus keeps trying to dress Subaru up in beautiful, elegant outfits.
-When Subaru dies, Ram feels empty inside. Looking at her own hair and Subaru’s, which were both long, she feels as though another little sister of hers has died.
-When Reinhard learns who Subaru really is after not seeing her for many years, he feels strange — how could someone so kind turn into something cruel and cold-blooded?

Gluttony IF
-Subaru cuts her hair short because her friend said it looks good on her and is more convenient for missions.

Greed IF
-When Julius meets Subaru again, he feels like he’s seeing a stranger. She’s no longer the hot-headed girl he knew, but a woman who seems empty and distant.
-Reinhard falls into depression over the uselessness of his existence and decides to blindly follow Subaru, believing she’s better than him — a woman both beautiful and wise.
-Emilia often invites Subaru to dress up with her in the morning, take baths together, or have pajama parties.

I don’t even know how far I can go when it comes to posting violent images… but one thing’s for sure — if I post that Pride IF picture, this account’s gonna vanish instantly. orz

I was so bored that I decided to try something weird. Making a canvas this huge was completely useless — I can only draw with two layers at most. It’s slow to download, keeps lagging, and honestly, there won’t be a next time.
I really want to make a large-scale illustration, but lately I’ve been seriously training for a race. orz

(I just realized there are already over twenty chapters now. Honestly, if it weren’t for that one author I really like and wanted to leave comments for, I probably wouldn’t even have this gallery.)

Natsuki Subaru, a man of fatherly age, had a cute daughter and a beautiful wife who recently passed away in a car accident just days prior.

As he returned from work and hugged his beloved daughter, he suddenly found himself transported to an unknown location. Subaru held his daughter tighter in his arms. His surroundings were pitch black, yet his own body was clearly visible. Suddenly, a silver-haired Elf girl appeared and continuously muttered something. Since her face was covered by a thin veil that dragged on the floor, her appearance was unclear. Subaru felt chills due to her behavior. She cried non-stop, and when she got close enough, he realized she was talking about a father.

Conversation with the woman proved difficult. All he knew was her name was 'Satella(?)' and she kept saying things like 'The Sword Saint threw the game,' 'Volachia...,' and 'Echidna is a terrible mother.'

"That's right—we lost because we didn't have good fathers."

"Excuse me, young lady?"

"Please help us, everyone's friendly neighborhood dad."

"EXCUSE ME?"

Then, when he opened his eyes, Natsuki Subaru found himself on an adventure in a fantasy world.

*****

-Furier is still alive. He is engaged to Crush and is very confident in doing what he wants. Felix quite likes Subaru.

-Louis acts like an older sister to Bina.

-Beatrice attempts to compete with Louis for the position of 'Big Sis.'

-No, Felt is the one who ultimately wins that title.

-Subaru takes in Satella(?), who is actually not Satella, but is Emilia (they are different people). Puck is unhappy and wants to challenge Subaru for the title of 'Friendly Neighborhood Dad.'

-Subaru accidentally destroys the mansion where Julius and Joshua live. He tries to make amends by treating them to desserts he made. Joshua dislikes Subaru (even though the dessert is delicious) and is subsequently scolded by Bina.

-Julius is very interested in the books Subaru talks about.

-Reinhard is enthusiastically trying to be helpful to Subaru and shares flowers he grows. Since Bina attempts to eat every flower he offers, Reinhard works with Od Lagna to find a way to make the flowers safe and delicious to eat.

-Reinhard is granted the title of "Big Bro" by Bina, and he is extremely happy about it.

-Subaru has a deep-seated complex related to being troubled by a girl with purple and orange hair.

**Additional Context**

-Rumi was a girl who was close to Subaru when he first disguised himself as Natsumi and attended school, before everyone found out Subaru was a boy.

Rumi believed she had found her perfect love in him. She liked Subaru very much and was delighted when he returned to school, even though her behavior was something that should not be imitated (she was clearly a stalker; her love was at a concerning level). She persistently tried to court him until they eventually got married.

-The ribbon she wears was found and kept from Subaru's room when she once visited. Rumi loves it so much that she wears it in her hair all the time.

-Aside from her name meaning 'bow' (as in a weapon), Rumi comes from an old family. She is skilled in archery and martial arts, and she possesses tremendous physical strength. She used to be annoyed that her father and grandfather constantly forced her to train and exercise. Now, she sees the benefit of it; at the very least, she can drag Subaru along when she goes running.

-Rumi is strong enough to carry Subaru easily. In fact, she has more muscle mass than one might realize.

-Rumi is not fond of mayonnaise and actively tries to study how it can be made delicious.

-Subaru arrives decades before the main story begins.

-The person Subaru meets initially is not Satella, but Emilia, who introduces herself as Satella because she is in a state of severe depression. She comes from a timeline where Subaru never existed, and no one—not Roswaal, Echidna, or anyone—ever recognized his existence. She managed to live and gather friends, before losing Puck and everything else.

Because Puck always taught her the importance of having a good father, Emilia decided to bring the 'Good Father' to everyone herself. (Reinhard throwing the game was the final straw before Emilia realized that there was not a single healthy, complete family structure around her).

-Emilia-tella and Emilia are not the same person.

I finally made a Twitter account. It feels a bit weird, maybe because I’m not used to it yet, but now I have two places to post my art. I have to thank my friend for helping me set it up—from brainstorming to writing my bio (believe it or not, I just gave her my ideas and she did all the typing). She’s amazing.

After taking second place in both the 400m sprint and tug-of-war (let’s just ignore the basketball game💀), volunteering for Children’s Day where kids were literally climbing all over me, and even ending up in the hospital after being choked and almost getting a bullet hole in me—I’m still here. Then, right after midterms, I went straight to an academic camp. My arm is feeling much better now, and the music on the bus ride back really sparked my inspiration to draw again.

Overall, life is as peaceful as usual. I'm not dead, just had a bit of a chaotic schedule.

Blame my brother for this one he’s the one who requested 'Yandere Subaru' 🤷‍♂️ Wish granted. 😈