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1. Let Us Live, Since We Must Die. by b4tmanst1nkz

   Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Marvel, Marvel (Comics), Thunderbolts (Movie 2025)  

   • Explicit
   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence, Major Character Death
   • F/M
   • Work in Progress

   02 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Graphic Depictions Of Violence
   • Major Character Death
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Reader
   • James "Bucky" Barnes/Original Female Character(s)
   • James "Bucky" Barnes
   • Steve Rogers
   • Sam Wilson
   • Natasha Romanov (Marvel)
   • Helmut Zemo
   • Nick Fury
   • Maria Hill
   • Original Characters
   • Shuri (Marvel)
   • T'Challa (Marvel)
   • Original Villain - Hiekl Ivanov
   • Alpine | Bucky Barnes's Cat
   • Movie: Captain America: The Winter Soldier (2014)
   • Hydra
   • The Winter Soldier - Freeform
   • Bucky Barnes Needs a Hug
   • Slow ass burn
   • Angst
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • reader is a badass
   • reader used to work for shield
   • nick fury is serving
   • BAMF Bucky Barnes
   • the angst is so angst
   • when i said slow burn i meant it
   • POV First Person
   • will tag as I go
   • Violence
   • Blood and Gore
   • reader actually has character and depth
   • Author is okay
   • Hurt Bucky Barnes
   • Hurt Steve Rogers
   • Hurt everyone everything is poopie
   • itll get better
   • not for a while tho oops
   • PTSD
   • Nightmares/Night Terrors
   • bucky WILL get his hug
   • No use of y/n
   • author gets carried away in emotion
   • no srsly i keep on crying while writing FAR too much
   • Hydra can lick my dick
   • Implied/Referenced Sexual Assault
   • I care about Bucky beyond his body
   • somehow the reader haunts the readers narrative???
   • idfk either
   • In depth descriptions of trauma and the body's reaction to it
   • irresponsible reader
   • people are ACTUAL humans and WILL make human mistakes
   • Drinking

   Summary

   You had been Nick Fury's right hand for your whole life, and you were fine with that. Your duty was to help people- one mission at a time.

   Then everything went to shit. After an encounter with a masked soldier with a metal arm leaving you barely breathing, you left. Ready to put the violence, the pain, and the unrequited justice- all behind you.

   But things never could be normal again... guilt and grief around every corner, and the worst part was that you had no purpose now. Nothing to make all the pain worth it.

   That was until Steve Rogers showed up at your door, asking for your help with one more mission. What he failed to mention was the reason why you left in the first place, The Winter Soldier, was a part of it, too.

   CURRENT TIMELINE:
   CATWS: 2-11
   BETWEEN CATWS AND CIVIL WAR: 11-30
   CIVIL WAR: 31-40
   BETWEEN CIVIL WAR AND INFINITY WAR: 41+

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   140,266

   Chapters:

   48/?

   Comments:

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   Kudos:

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