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1. take me back (I don't belong here) by rensvoid

   Fandoms: State SMP | ish's Civilization Series, Minecraft (Video Game), Chained Life SMP  

   • Mature
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   14 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Fluixon/Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
   • KaNukei & Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Fluixon & Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Fluixon (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Saparata (Video Blogging RPF)
   • The Conspiracy Ensemble (State SMP)
   • Alex Kisiel | ish
   • Jophiel_ (Video Blogging RPF)
   • KaNukei (Video Blogging RPF)
   • Other Minecraft YouTubers
   • Alternate Universe
   • Bodyswap
   • Kinda?
   • State SMP Season 2.5
   • Avian Saparata
   • Fluixon Needs a Hug
   • chainedlife!saps is EVIL
   • Emotional Manipulation
   • Angst
   • Choking
   • Minor Character Death
   • Implied/Referenced Suicide
   • The Watchers are the Audience (Evolution SMP)
   • yea they're here as a plot device don't mind that
   • Fix-It of Sorts
   • unrequited thomflux
   • Hurt/Comfort
   • But also
   • Hurt No Comfort
   • Pining
   • Wing Grooming
   • Minecraft Mechanics
   • No beta we die like Flux
   • Possibly Unrequited Love
   • its rough out here for flux guys hes having a terrible time
   • Self-Indulgent
   • Hopeful Ending
   • Denial of Feelings
   • Swordfighting
   • Blood and Violence
   • Canon-Typical Violence
   • Minor Injuries
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • avian culture mentioned
   • Complicated Relationships
   • because truly what the fuck is state!fluxarata doing
   • Saparata Needs a Hug (Video Blogging RPF)
   • state!saps is now also going through it
   • Eating Disorder Not Otherwise Specified
   • its barely mentioned
   • Guilt

   Summary

   This wasn't Saparata.

   At least not the Saparata he'd known the last months, the Saparata he'd betrayed. Fluixon had to remember that, had to keep reminding himself of that fact. It shouldn't be too hard, the different eyecolour jarring enough.
   So why couldn't he stop his heart from beating faster whenever the other smiled at him? Why couldn't he stop himself from getting closer? Fluixon knew better than this.

   Or: the fic that switches chainedlife!saps and statesmp!saps

   Series

   • Part 3 of in every universe it's still you

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